Mmmm....

Maybe some people misunderstood the intention of Claudia's confession hari nih pasal rumahtangga dia.

The point is not about dia rindu anak dia saja.

The point was to offer an insight into what she was thinking. Sebenarnya, adengan Claudia menangis sebelum masuk bilik pengakuan, tak ditunjukkan. She was crying and she was left to that.

Only after dia ok je much later she was asked why.

And the real story, if you watch what happened again is this. Cerita nya mengikut Claudia, bukan sama seperti Rubisa rindukan anak dia sampai nangis (seperti diceritakan dalam blog pelajar), atau seperti Sidi rindukan isteri dia (seperti dia mengaku dalam Diari).

The story is that Claudia, yang statusnya sudah berkahwin, mendedahkan keresahan dia. Her story is that dia dan husband dia, Romie, da seperated sebenarnya. Mereka duduk berasingan. Dia nyatakan dia da letih untuk menunggu suaminya yang tinggalkan dia dan anaknya dia, Christian.

Resah nya untuk meninggalkan anak dia yang baru berusia dua tahun, if I'm not mistaken... is understandable, but more so sebab dia memikirkan anak dia akan membesar tanpa seorang ayah - di atas ketidaksanggupan dia nak terima suami nya kembali lagi atas masaalah peribadi yang menimpa mereka.

I suppose people can see this as another cry tactic. For me - it was about the reality that she was going against some personal demons she had to deal with, whether she liked it or not.

And I'm glad to say, yang last entry aku sampai kata aku tergerak nak emo sekali tuh, was because she said she can do it alone, not think about all this, and to use this opportunity to better her life and her son's.

This maybe sad for some. For me it was inspirational.

Aku ngaku... memang ada kelemahan soal bilik 'confession' ni. No excuses. It's lame to offer any. But ni baru minggu pertama, and that was the first time a student masuk for us to talk to. Apa apa kelemahan, will be rectified.

The point of the confessional, is to help the students to exorcise their personal demons whih hold down their progress, supaya mereka lebih focused on the task at hand. Apa saja mereka ingin luahkan, that's the place to do it.

Reality TV? This is reality. Life isn't perfect... and occasionally shit DOES hit the fan.

Anyway, masuk bab lain. Gosip Obri dan Rini tuh, I think things are clearer now kan?

Tamau cakap lebih. What you see is what you get.

Bab Sidi rindu wife... erm... no offence but I think while I can forgive marital problems, or a mother missing her children... bab rindu isteri nih, takperla. Bukan gi ke mana pun. Bab rumahtangga tengah problem ke missing kids tu aku rasa something we can all empathise with.
Jantan kena la tough sikit beb.

Speaking of tough, aku suka sangat kelas Cikgu Aida. Seriously, she is a new addition to the faculty yang memang worth it. It's interesting nak tengok her techniques on getting the kids to emote themselves more, and plus bebudak sendiri always find it the highlight of the day (selain kelas Cikgu Aris)

Speaking of Aris' class, as usual, every year, the girls are a little slower on the take bab choreography. But this is where kekuatan Cikgu Aris memang aku respect. Tanpa perlu meninggikan suara atau menjerit, dia tetap tegas dan berjaya nak sampaikan ajaran dia minus the drama of having to wat sampai nak bunuh diri bab nak ajar bebudak kalao slow sikit. Jap je dia berbaik tegas dan tegur... si Zizi leh tangkap da.

I especially like the fact, how he's focusing on getting the kids to be able to execute singing while dancing. Walaupun... well it's only the first week. Am sure it'll be better than yang lepas yang sampai terpaksa miming bagai. Matilah bukak buku sejarah tuk dedahkan titik hitam.

Anyway most of the girls lemau sikit bab menari, but collectively nampak meka trying. Akim, Sidi dan Hafiz,... ya ampun! Sorang ngada main-main, sorang entah pikiran melayang ke mana, dan sorang agik refleks cam lambat lak delivery dari other senses nak react. Gituh...

Steps lebih cantik and aku teringat choreography Corrie dulu. Takpe la.. kelemahan camna pun, we'll see at the concert camna.

Apapon betul kata kak Mah. Ramai nampaknya peminat Cikgu Aris ni. Sampai memacam soalan peribadi aku dapat pasal dia. (especially you Elle) Aku tak reti nak jawab la. Kang dia bagik dancing shoe kat aku makan kalao aku nak soal dia lelebih. Lain lak.

Merasalah tahun ni yang jambu takde orang nak minat lebih lebih.

Tapi kan... off topic. Tahun ni, time musim Akademi Fantasia.. ada yang jambu yang laku tau. Nih dia!

This is the best jambu you can get in Shah Alam. promo free sat! Korang gi ke arah Hicom, belah kanan gudang Ikea... just before that on the left ada Courts Mammoth (sebelum Petronas) ada warung ambu Mak Usu 161 (angka tuh stand for what tatau lak). Memang sedap dowh!!!!!

Tetiap hari tu mesti jadik dessert. Aku bungkus bebanyak sampai abang-abang peniaga tuh da kenal aku da. Sampai bebudak production yang tunggu aku bekalkan jambu da ada yang panggil aku 'Joe Jambu' da. Matilahhhhhh!!!

Eh ok la.. nak tidur. Korang layan la Diari hari ni kat bawah ni ok. Night...


PS - Untuk makluman yang mungkin tidak faham. Claudia telah dimaklumkan yang 'penasihat' sebenarnya berada disebalik cermin, dan gambar anaknya yang diusung ke sana kemari di mintak ditunjukkan kepada 'penasihat' yang telah pun memberitahu Claudia dia hanya mendengar apa saja luahan hati pelajar.

The belief is that the room is not rigged.

Kalao korang perasan, komunikasi Clauida terbatas. dia hanya dapat mendengar penasihat, yang merupakan 'orang luar' - based on understanding that the advisor is not part of production - hence orang luar takleh masuk bersemuka dalam Akademi Fantasia, melalui headphone. Cara dia membalas pula dengan cakap seperti biasa.

Ini kerana setiap student diminta buka mic mereka sebelum memasuki bilik tu - sesuatu yang tidak dibenarkan di Akademi Fantasia. This is the only zone yang meka leh wat sebegitu assuring them of more privacy to luahkan masaalah mereka. Suara mereka kononnya hanya didengari kerana 'pendengar' berada di sebalik cermin.

Claudia ada buat ucapan pada anak dan keluarga dia - tapi iucapan yang tidak ditunjukkan hanya dibuat kepada camera kat dance floor.So this again is testimony yang kehadiran camera dalam bilik baru ini tidak disedari. And more importantly - luahan student bukan atas provokasi tapi atas keinginan mereka sendiri untuk talk to someone. That's why remote camera seperti Pngut dan Kutip tidak bersuara for now - so meka limited sikit mode nak melepaskan, tuk membenarkan mereka an environment where they can really go all out and tell all.

Like I said, there are glitches to be worked still... but most of the immediate worries have been sorted out. Keep your suggestions coming on how tomake things more interesting.

If you can think of anything to make things more better, share with me. Just keep in mind that bebudak masuk with the realisation this is reality TV. And that there is a need to buangkan sifat malu mereka - and be more forthright with their opinions and emotions dan bukan nak 'control macho' because they know they're on TV. In short, a way to keep things real.

PPS - Baru terlelap... ayang aku call dari nun jauh. Rindu...