Marcell-ous!

What happens when ko ketemukan dua orang yang montel dan comel, tapi berdua melatah cam kera kena sumpit bila dicucuk? Hah...sila lihat gambar di atas sebagai rujukan akibatnya.

This pic was taken kat Planet Hollywood tadik. Onm the left tuh Ari, sound man tuk Planet Hollywood. Kenal dia da lama.... on the right tuh, si Ayu, dulu keja PR ngan EMi skang ngan KRU.

Berdua ni kes kronik melatah. Nak cakap apa kata kata hasil latahan meka pon tak berani sebab erm... quite advanced la bahasa dia sampai kalao nak rating ada abjad dan angka. Leh?
Kelakar tengok meka dua ni. Dah ler sama comel dan sihat (berangan cam aku ni figure Kate Moss lak kan!)

Apapon, Ayu, thanks ek babe for dinner at izzi's. Aku nak belanja ko lak belanja aku. Cipert punya kawan. Heh...

Aku lepak Planet Hollywood earlier this evening sebab Marcell ada sound check, then sesi jumpa peminat yang menang competition nak spend time ngan dia.

Aku lak gi tuk interview, tetiba tengok ramai lak kengkawan da pacak kat sana (pacak sebab meka keja sana...)

Anyways, had a little time with Marcell to yak and all. Never spoke to him, but despite not finding anything alluring about him, can understand why women go ga-ga over him. He's smooth, intelligent, charismatic and quite charming, to sum it all up.

Malas nak tulis pepanjang sebab pas abih interview nak jumpa bebudak and all and lepak a bit before the show tonight. Nanti aku update kan esok je ek.

A bit on the show, and hopefully lots of pics!

Tentang Dia... erm... entah lagik. I have not made up my mind what to do. Arini banyak lagi yang benda yang muncul bagik aku pikir lebih mendalam pasal my friendship ngan dia.

Aku leh tima dia kerana kekurangan dia. But I need to know kalao dia realise apa yang dia buat. Sebelom hilang perasaan sayang aku tuk Dia.

Long story... not worth sharing. Anyway... (tarik nafas sat), gotta go. I'll leave you guys with this pic of Marcell ek.

Toodles.

Marcell - chilling in Planet Hollywood

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Rollercoaster

Semalam pas jumpa Dia and all, it was weird and without meaning to, talked a lot about what we were going through. Maybe it's too early nak cakap pasal all this at a point in time where we're getting to know one another, tapi yerlah..baik cita awal awal.

There were some things I agreed with, and some I didn't. Key word, compromise.
So am I single and still available? Technically single, yes, available, tak berani cakap!

Pelik?

Not really... but kali pertama kami heart to heart talk sampai empat jam gituh nak luahkan perasaan pelbagai, and we got to hear what each other had to say and we came up with how we would approach things. After all, commitment is never an easy thing.

But at least we're on track and trying, I suppose that counts for something. Tapi sepanjang berapa jam, dari tension, gelihati, gelak, panas... semua emosi ada lah. Heh... aku ni jenis tension camna pon, tetiba, leh wat lawak bodoh nya just to laugh things off. My nature, which sometimes, people just don't think I'm serious enough at times. Yeah right... me and my babbling... sapa pikir tuh memang tak kenal aku kot.

But I'm starting to merapu. Anyways, pas hang out with friends and all, it was 8 am sebelom aku balik rumah. Leh? Akibat nak sort things out, eye bags cam da cam luggage plastic guni yang di bawa pelarian. Aiyo... if I'm not careful I will start to look 31 (berangan kan... cam la muka aku tak moka bapak orang umo 41!)

Tapi time masa we started, kat kedai makan kat Ampang ni, sempat ler ada comic relief ngan this sign.

So... do you feel cannibalistic? Well if you have such tendencies at any rate, I recommend this stall.

Have a bite of man burger!!! Ok ok...lame joke! For those who don't know (we may have outsiders here), Man is actually a name proounced as in 'barn'. But I thought it was funny... man burger!

Well, it was 5am, and I hadn't slept and having a serious discussion. A lot of things seem funnier at that point.

So the next afternoon bangun zombie like la apa lagik. A little bit of work (Fridays are slow), picked up Zaff and went to Vern's place sebab ada keja sikit nak beramai ramai gotong royong.

In other words, cheap.. no make it free labour!

Everyone was going for another round of Muallaf, sebab ada extended scene yang added, and kak Min said she didn't think I could take a third watch of it. Are you crazy, woman???!!! Heh!!!
Looking forward to the added scene, but since also had plans to party out tonight, didn't make it.

Dia sakit ari ni sop tak jumpa for the first time in two weeks. But da agak dia mesti gi clubbing so met up there and spent that little precious time ngan Dia sana.

Yang besh nya, aku passing lagu Samsons punya remix Dengan Nafasmu kat DJ Ivan and he played it twice, so sempat ler joget lambak to Bams and Gang.

Me likey!

Anyhoo, sebab tengah mood gila sikit, I ditched my t shirt and jeans, which I so prefer for clubbing and decided to dress up for once to club. Leh?

Hence a shirt, pin striped skinny pants and a pair of dress shoes I got some time back.
Note to people yang berbadan sihat - even though skinny pants are in right now, please watch your body shape, cause wearing such pants could eventually make you look like kentang yang di cucuk dua batang mancis kat bawah. In other words, it's hardly flattering to your proportions.

Erm.. I didn't look that bad, though I think it's going to be a long time before I wear those pants again as much as I like them.

Yang pentingnya, aku ingat aku gila sebab pakai kasut aku tuh, because they're hardly clubby wear, and then Dia pointed out si Ben pun pakai more or less dress shoes. Tengok tengok Ah Fatt otherwise (matila Kerut Dayanti) pun pakai something similar.

Ada geng!!! Merasalah pose kasut!

Aku punya yang black and white, sesuai ngan tema kaler blog, while the other two went for all white. Si Kerut ni siap pakai shorts while wearing those shoes. Matilah fashonista berangan!
After we finished about 3 in the morning when the club closed its doors, kami ramai ramai gerak for supper. And I mean ramai ok. I think there was close to twenty people in the group (kumpulan sukaneka katanya).

Yang besh si Shida datang, pas malu malu taik kucing ngan si Adi. Dia first jumpa Adi masa aku ajak dia out for a night ngan aku a few weeks ago. The rest they say is history. Problem is dua dua slow mover kan... so hasilnya, lepas berminggu baru jumpa kali kedua. So old fashioned dating kan!

Anyway masa supper, berdua tuh cam inseperable! Makan pon order feeling kongsi satu pinggan gituh! Awwwww... how romantic! Semoga bahagia ke anak cucu kucing korang tuh ek. Heh!

It was a weird night. I mean it began as a totally weird day anyway. So I guess the rollercoaster of emotions was expected. But all in all, an eventful Friday night.

Especially when, tima masa Ivan nak pasang lagu Samsons tu, I spotted someone across the dance floor. Mmm... senyuman dia. Mak aih!

Dia malu malu tapi pandang gak aku. Or at least I think lah. Later when I went out of the club to bak masuk kak Shida yang datang ngan kawan kawan tapi malu malu (always!) nak masuk tanpa kenalan, dia pon turun and came out of the club ngan kengkawan dia.

We looked at each other sebelom dia tegur. Erm... aku rasa muka dia familair. Tapi aku tak sure.
Then we started talking.

Ah.. now I remember. We kept in touch sebab kenal online, and dia takde kat Mesia ni so we kind of lost touch. Dia ada jenguk jenguk blog. Yes, it's you babe I'm talking about.

And hasilnya? I have a date tonight? Erm... how about Dia? Well... I'm still single aren't I?

Gawd... I sound like such a pig kan sebab suka orang tu then nak date orang ni. Well, just remember things aren't always as they seem and nothing is black or white. You have to know the whole story before understanding, before which, you never draw a conclusion.

Assumption, my dear, is the mother of all f**k ups, quote unquote - from Priscilla Queen of the Desert.

Ok kiddies, nak shower and shave and out for another night on the town. By the way, tomorrow

is Marcell at Planet Hollywood. Anyone going?

PS - Just starting to finally read Amy Tan's Saving Fish From Drowning. Need to get back to my rading habits.

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Work work work... surprised?

Today has been about racking my brains. Nak kejar deadline satu hal, pastu couple that with just making sure all my assignments up to date and all. Sejak dua menjak ni rajin lak aku nak pastikan stok story tak bertimbun sampai naik sesawang.

Bukan apa, I just feel rejuvenated at the moment, and very inspired. No no no... bokan sebab tengah dilamun haper.. though perhaps being happy does help.

Ala...biasa la. Lagikpon bukan takde side drama, cuma sebab kurang banding ngan previous experiences, ok ler, kira sap sap suwey gituh nak handle.

Spent the whole of today at home, which is such a better working environment than the office if I have deadlines and not going out for assignments. Konsep work from home katanya... takde lar. Just easier to get things done at an amazing rate.

And my accompaniment? One KFC Zinger burger, a 1.25l bottle of Coke, and a half pack of Marlboro Reds left over from last night. Da cukup nak get my brain working. Yeap caffeine and nicotine make for good friends when you are facing deadlines... though honestly caffeine gives me only minor bursts of energy before which aku ngantuk. Leh?

Unlike most people, I drink a whole pot of coffee, lagik aku tidur nyenyak.

Anyway, along with working out my fingers at my laptop, pick up work related calls, dapat panggilan dari seseorang tuh... aku tambah inspired nak keja because of my musical selection.
For the last two weeks, Samsons' Penantian Hidup has been the album, with every song slowly becoming a favourite.

Honestly, aku rasa album ni is so fab! My fave tracks right now is Seandainya (the first I ever liked), Kisah Tak Sempurna (tuk saat saat rasa nak give up ngan dia sebab takut), Perbedaan (another early fave), Luluh, For You and S.F.W.

Started work with it, and bila da pusing the whole album one round da, ingat nak switch, so reached out for a few CDs I had yang lom dengar.

Next choice was Kris Dayanti's album titled erm...KRISDAYANTI (how creative...merasalah!) It last for a whole half hour on repeats for only one or two songs like Bidadari and I'm Sorry Goodbye, then it was out of my CD player.

Boring sikit this album compared to Cahaya and her previous even. So in went in the next album titled, erm.. 'Sing Along With Melly' which was basically a singalong thing on VCD of Melly Goeslow's greatest hits gituh.

Ni tahan gak sebab ada Jika, Cinta (both versions), Ada Apa Dengan Cinta, Ingin DiCinta dan Mencintai, Tak Tahan Lagi, Apa Artinya Cinta, Tentang Dia, Let's Dance Together... banyak lho!!!! 16 tracks! So it lasted longer.

Last choice masa nak wrap up keja reached for the last CD lom dengar.

Erm... Keunggulan Erra Fazira. Ngan cover a composite of previous pics ala Madonna's GHV1 and GHV2 collection. Erm...all the hits adalah...

But somehow, walaopon recognised most of the songs on it, it never made it into my CD player.

Back to Samsons, wrapped up my work. It's almost 8pm now. Shower, shave and off to dinner with Dia. Our movie got cancelled again this time sebab ada outstation friends baru sampai kena play host.
Takpe... as long as we spend time together. I'm ok with it. More later... gotta run.

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To the movies and back

Dari semalam sebenarnya da planning ngan non-date aku tuh (gelak asik kena panggil dia non-date sebab tamau things get complicated walaopon hati da sayang nak tengok wayang. We talked about it, and since dia ajak aku tuk layan Ratatouille.

Seronoknya dia minat the same stuff aku minat. I mean, we have our little different interests, but generally we agree on quite a lot of things.

So dari smalam da plan, siang tadik hit a glitch. Abang dia kena rush Penang cause darling dia punya dad dah expiring gituh.
Someone aku nih tak nak ikut, so we decided nak stick to the plan, after sending abang dia and all.

Went to Berjaya Times Square, and were quite miffed that takde pon poster ke haper Ratatouille.

Alamak!

Rupanya esok baru mula tayangan. Aduh. Cam kesial. So we debated nak tengok apa. Dia nak tengok Flash Point, but the seat were second row from the screen! Horror!

I had the next choice, which was The Simpsons. Fifth row from the screen. Pass! Memang kes masuk hospital tuk sakit tengkuk kang.

We both agreed on a repeat of Transformers, but the movie was starting in ten minutes dan kami berdua kebulur tak makan agik, so we passed on the movie to postpone it to tomorrow night. Yeah!!! Another date... I mean.. non-date casual social rendezvous! Leh?

Masa kami makan, dia dapat mesej dari abang dia I think katakan pasal condition 'father in law' dia tuh, serious. Dia lak start feeling guilty, dan walaopon dia memula rasa nak hop on the next bus to Penang. In the end decided he best call jer sana and hope for the best.

Thankfully things were still ok, so dia lega. But we called it an early night sebab dia pon kurang sihat. Kira to be continued punya movie outing ler. Ingat nak review Ratatouille, but nampaknya the review will have to wait until tomorrow.

Unless we don't get tickets la...heh...

So posting ari ni.. simply about.... my desk!

Leh? Tempat dok kat opis aku. Aku penah letak pic dulu masa baru pindah new place kan. Tapi sejak da give it a homely touch ni, lom agik amik pics nak share.

So ni a tour of my... erm...workspace at the office.

My workspace


My huge monitor. Yes, size does matter! Erm.. cam familiar wallpaper tuh kan?


One of the most valuable things here. My autographed Slipknot poster masa bukan je jumpa, tapi lepak ngan meka kat Bangkok.


Erm... a disco, ball, a crown, a feather boa and an ostrich feather. Ask no questions and I will tell no lies.


My original angel sketch for my tattoo yang dah pun buat, pics of me and some model friends at an event I was hosting and a randowm clown thigie that just looks scary!


Kiddie land! Spawn - by Todd Macfarlane yang bebudak opis bagik aku for my brithday, also renamed Spawn-Dan (get it?) on the left. On the right, part of abang Bad's birthday present to me. Also a Todd Macfarlane creation, the fire dragon. I love it!!! My centrepiece!

Why the need nak tour my desk? Adalah sebab. Which is, tatau la da tayang ke lom, tapi ada one episode Trek Selebriti, Si Jimmy Shanley dok interview Zainal Alam Kadir, my mentor and former editor skang turned star gituh kan.

So anyway, masa aku takde, meka mai filming kat opis, tempat where Alam used to work, which technically da tak wujud sebab da pindah tempat kan.

Tapi kira for location pelbagai ok lar. Merasalah meja aku jadik tumpuan, dan bahan carutan.
Keji kan!!!!

When you have friends like that, who needs enemies? Heh...eh ok lah. Tu je pun nak share for today.

Got to sleep. Most hectic day of the week tomorrow.

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Black.. white.. and grey...

First of all, you may have noticed by new blog layout. Kali pertama dalam dua tahun since I changed it. Longer in fact. The themes have always been similar from white and orange to black and orange. So kali ni, I just wanted something simple in black, white and grey.

Kind of like a reflection of life that things are never as they seem, never black and white, though it is occasionally applicable.

Apapon, took me a good three hours to betulkan and all, tapi berbekalkan semangat waja pas kawan aku nih tukau layout blog dia pas first anniversary, I just thought it would be nice to spruce things up a little here too.

Since it took up so much of my time, didn't really leave any for updates. Besok je aku update ok.
Meanwhile,just share with me if you think this is ok.

Apapon, lots of work today sebab nak abihkan keja by noon. Why? Kerana nak tengok movie ngan seseorang. Yeap, while I am still single, I am not sure about the available part, as we're sorting that bit out.

Whatever it is, it's nice to be able to pend some time with someone special... be posting more tomorrow. Nak tidur nih... pasang lagu Samsons sat tuk mimpikan dia...

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Kisah tak sempurna

First of all, being Monday, things were a little hectic. With the Monday blues and all, aku pun malas sebenarnya nak wat apa apa hari ni. Ada ler bebenda main pala aku. I think too much sometimes.

Erm... but I suppose it's better than being brain dead, though like the first bite of the Adam's apple, awareness and the ability to differenciate things for what they are or aren't is just such a bitch.

First, let me get the Ikon pics out of the way cause aku pun baru dapat email tadik, nak touch up pelbagai pics aku tima. Not too many as I didn't want to weigh down my blog.

The Ikon Asean final champions from the solo and group categories from Philippines in Vina Morales and Kjwan. Below, our Malaysian best in Jaclyn Victor and OAG who both put up more than a good fight, and finally, the not quite the best representatives from Indonesia in Judika and Tahta.




Our darling! You did great no matter what, Jac!


So now that's out of the way, here's my Samsons bit. Actually, like the me that you guys pun tau, I'm always on my mood swings. Being happy for over a week, being with that person everywhere, However, like I said, realising things don't happen on their own, my mind is into overdrive and thinking about how it will be, which just totally f**ks me up. Oh well.. biasalah.

The song that's been keeping me company for today is Kisah Tak Sempurna. I know it's not the newest song of the second album... tapi it just fits me in this current mood. Cepat gila kan berubah mood aku...sebelom ni, the whole week was summed up by Dengan Nafasmu from Samsons' first album...oh well. At least music remains teh best lover. Proven.

Erm... dalam melayan perasaan, suddenly I just feel like going down to Johor tomorrow for the Samsons showcase there. Tengok lar kalao aku gila.Mesti aku nitis air mata kalao dengar meka nyanyi Kisah Tak Sempurna lagik sekali live. Ok ok... cukup merapu. Here are the pics. By the way, orang Johor... turun Danga Bay tuh kalao ada amik pics kongsi kongsi ler ok. Send your pics to me kalao korang sempat amik aku publish sini.
At the Samsons press conference, Planet Hollywood Kuala Lumpur.



At the Samsons Live! showcase at Menara PGRM, Cheras, Kuala Lumpur




Amacam...ok tak. Sorry ler. Walaopon inbox aku banyak pics yang dihantar, malas tol nak letak semua. Hope these are sufficient.

Ok la...nak sambung layan Kisah Tak Sempurna hingga aku dibuai lena kesepian. Merasalah jiwang nak mampos. Heh! Tadi da jumpa camtuh lar kan.

Dia ni...da jadik cam a drug lak. Addictive. Aku kena jumpa dia tiap hari kalao tak... erm... rimas lak kang. Esok jumpa agik. I think we've been inseperable for the past one and a half weeks or so. And I hope it continues.

Apapon, good or bad, nampaknya album Samsons skang yang menjadi teman aku. Penantian

Hidup is a must. Cam album Agnes Monica yang second da where every song just grips you.

Hardcore fan of Samsons katanya. To Bams and gang... hope I can make it down to Johor tomorrow. Would love to see your show again.Be posting again tomorrow...

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LIVE - Ikon Asean - Final

Baru sampai Putrajaya nih... cam tak happening lak sebab kurang orang. Dewan about two thirds je terisi, unlike semifinal yang sampai melimpah kuar jumlah orang yang menghadiri. Erm... takkan takde Mawi, ramai yang tak sanggup datang sokong bakat senegara. Hish... tapi nak wat camna lak.

Anyway, Dollah Cantik briefing pelbagai before si Sarimah muncul onstage.
Erm...tak minat Dominic tuh... tapi ada yang suka. Prefer kalao Sairmah with someone else, but whatever la.

Opening tetap Citrawarna Malaysia, showing the world we're colour blind.

And then it's one with the show.

Kjwan - One Look (Philippines)
I love them! Memang dari performance meka hari tuh kat Planet Hollywood aku da suka. They musicianship is awesome! Tight! Rarely I have seen bands that have the level of skill they have and yet, don't appear so contrived. Meka ni memang besh abih
And proven by their past record, and their performance, Kjwan is leading the pack for the winners of the group category.
I only hope, OAG will go all out dan buktikan meka ni bukan calang calang.
Verdict : They're the favourites all right for the Ikon group.

Judika - Malaikat (Indonesia)
Erm...tak minat dia sangat but I have to admit he did quite well. While I think he's still hardly on par to be in competition with Jac, he foes have a good set of windpipes on him. Tapi pelik sikit sora dia, memula kepit ayu, then rock jantan lak. Heh... not bad, but I would have preferred kalao Mike Prabawa yang tewaskan Judika masa Idol bertanding.
Verdict : Not good enough to beat Jac, but a good fight.

Tahta - Dasar Pengecut (Indonesia)
Why do they remind me of New Boyz? Erm.. bosan sikit ler. Pretty boy rock doesn't work for me, but I suppose some people liked it.
Have to admit musically they were quite ok, but it was standard pop fare jer, not even close to what Kjwan did.
Definitely out of the champions race as predicted if they keep this standard up. No freat shakes.
Verdict - Tight pants and platform boots like worn by the lead is so wrong!

Jaclyn Victor - Kau Laksana Bulan, Tunggu Sekejap & Getaran Jiwa (medley),(Malaysia)
What else can you say about Jac, Dia sorang je berani nak wat medley tribut to the late and great Tan Dri P. Ramlee tuk competition. Picking such understated songs to maximise through no other reason but using her superb vocals.
I kept my eye on Hety Koes Endang, and aku leh kata she was blown away.
Inilah Jac...
Verdict : Winner!!!! Pariotism aside, they should just give her the trophy and cash.

OAG - Nowhy2 (Malaysia)
Awmigawd!!! I thought Radhi was going to remain calm, and he did for most of the song to maintain his vocals, tapi sampai bab break tuh yang dia naik psycho pusing pusing tuh, I thought he was freaking out and losing it.
But pas dia drop, leh teruskan lagik aku da...haiyoo...on your feet heathens! Rcok stars in the house!
Tahta is out for sure, and OAG has just climed a point higher to pit themselves against Kjwan.
By the way, time si Radi terjun tergolek tuh, kalao ada yang terkejut... aku pun sama. Masa tu kan dia pakai sunglasses kan? Pastu cabut. Guess what I found near my seat...
Heh...amik ko. Yang pentingnya, mula mula aku ingat spek dari rehearsal ke haper, tapi bebudak kata Radhi ada campak ke audience. Matilah...ni dia hasil keganasan jiwa rock Radhi!
Verdict : Bye bye Tahta.

Vina Morales - All That I Want (Philippines(
Eh...kenapa Sharifah Zarina pakai baju diperbuat dari tisu? Erm... heh. Tak tahan aku tengok imeh dia sebijik tuh.
But to be fair, she went all out an pulled out the stops and did quite well. More than I would give her credit for before.
And she did look radiant. Like how OAG closed the gap with Kjwan, Vina came close to Jac. The favourites remain just that though.
Verdict : Indonesian who had 100% SMS sent the wrong people to represent their country.

Judika - Bukan Rayuan Gombal (Indonesia)
Looks like Judika is hard pressed to follow Jac and Vina. But I think he realises it is a little too late now. And it is... good effort but a little too late.
Verdict : Next!

Kjwan - Shal (Philippines)
What the hell happened? They sounded great tapi cam kurang semangat saja. I hope it's not a case of getting too comfortable sebab they don't have that much of a lead after OAG's great performance.
Dunno... it's a tough one and depends on OAG's next performance.
Verdict : Too laid back and wrong for the competition.

Jaclyn Victor - Gemilang (Malaysia)
WOW! Malas nak komen persembahan dia, but I have to say that Hetty Koes Endang's reaction was enough to basically sum up what the other judges thought of it as well.
"Pak Iskandar... bagus kan..!!!". Yeap... Hetty pas Jac abih excited gila ok, aku she was gushing. Iskandar dok terdiam. Only mamat yang Filpina tuh cam tak puas ati je muka. Heh... No komen. Yang penting, kita tunggu dan lihat. Tapi for me, Jac's as good as won!
Verdict : Ladies and gentleman..the winner, rregardless of the jury decision!

Tahta - Tempat Yang Paling Indah & Aku Masih DiSini (medley) (Indonesia)
Bak kata someone with me, "terus boring je masuk band ni". And that was a reflection of what everyone seemed to think of Tahta after the excellent performances of Kjwan and OAG. They were just nowhere on the scale of greatness when it came to band power.
Honestly... just go home. Could we have Samsons, Garasi or Seurieus please.
Verdict : Go home already!

Vina Morales - Feels So Nice (Philippines)
She's smart. She planned her performance well, first going for the classic weepie then a fast number to rock the house. And she did quite well too.
Mesmerising, Vina clawed her way back to the competition with Jac.
It's going to be tough.
Veridct : Judika dan Tahta da balik ke lom?

OAG - Dayang & Beautifool (medley) (Malaysia)
Like Vina caught up with Jac, OAG have caught up with Dayang, and it's turning the tables on the possible favourites.
It's a photo finish all right and it'll be interesting to see who the judges pick though I wouldn't hold my breath for an Indonesian winner.
Verdict : Jac vs Vina and OAG vc Kjwan

So it's over, and like I said, it's right down to the finish line. We'll just have to wait and see. Erm... why the hell did they get Ella? Takde orang lain nak wat show ke. Tak sesuai la. No matter what her status is here at home as rock queen. Hardly something I'd be proud to show off regionally.
Don't know rationale behind the choice, but I think it's a little shabby for her to be the sole guest performer.

Oh well, we always seem to pick 'the best' kan.

Anyways, the results?

Kjwan emerged the winner of the group category, which was no surprise really sebab their musicianship is above par. OAG gave them a good run for their money, but hey... competition kan?

The surprise of the night, for me perhaps, was Vina Morales winning the solo category. While admittedly she did put on a good show, I still think Jac had the edge.

Oh well... I don't blame anyone, after all, each competition has its criteria.

Wish we knew what this one was.

The competition was undetermined from the start.

Contoh... pemilihan final by jury, was already a question mark for a lot of people. Four people picking icons of the region? I admit they're professionals, but in all meaning of the word, someone of iconic stature should be determined by a wider base.

Not that I'm for SMS, as you can see Indonesia which picked its representatives by 100% did not send their best.

Malaysia had 30% SMS votes determining while Philippines had 40%, which meant a different degree of choice involved.

So why not standardised? The question was raised early on.

Then there was the minor argument at the PC. Hetty revealed it was a no no for medleys during a competition, something which contestants were not told. Dan mangsa yang wat medley...ramai. tengok senarai. Erm..kalao takleh bagitau awal awal kan? Kalau tuh bukan apa meka nak tengok...cakap je.

But at the end of the day, aku tak salahkan Hetty or the jury, sebab meka wat tugas based on their scope of judgement they were briefed (if they were briefed)

And the artistes did what they could toput up the best show. Tapi tuh lah pasal. Wat competition tamau lak make it clear.

Judika questioned why they were not told they had a choice beyond their own albums, as he would have picked something more competition based, because Jac did too.

Erm... I don't blame the jury or the artistes, but maybe, the organisers should have ironed out more of the conflicting understanding of the event's rules and regulations early on and not let it affect the final.

Lain kali, make the criteria clear of what it takes to be an 'Ikon', apart from being branded something with bad spelling.

Oh whatever...

Anyway... kudos to those who entertained me in Jac, OAG, Kjwan and Vina.

Congrats to Kjwan especially for more than deserving their title. Nothing against Vina, but I think somehow... while she put up a good fight through her performances, she won more by default than anything else.

Dan walaopon ramai suka lau Pang Ako Sayo tuh, aku rasa ramai buta pada kesilapan dia hanya kerana suka lagu tuh It was a package, dan kerana rupa, lagu yang memang besh dan lain cukup, orang tak beri perhatian sepenuhnya kot kat sora dia.

At the end of the day, we have to wonder... what actually makes an icon. And how Indonesia, one of the region's superpowers can just die out in the competiton because of organisational values. Makes you think kan?

Oh well...

Before I forget, congrats to Sarimah and Dominic for the good job, depite the couple of glitches. Walaopon aku terpaksa korban tempat duduk at one point sebab Sarimah dok seat aku masa nak perkenalkan next performance, takper. Heh!

You guys rocked! More than Ella...ela ela...(merasalah Abu Bakar Elah!)

After the event had a chat with the folks involved, including ibu Hetty and Ramli M.S., who I must commend for the great work with the orchestra. Good one maestro!

Apapon, I suppose it's hard to cater to the masses, as well as maintaining quality... and I suppose in the case of Ikon, is win some, lose some.

Kjwan - rock gods in the making!


Sarimah and Dominic - what a pair!


The maestro and the legend!


Spoke to Kjwan, who is the only good thing to come out of Ikon, awareness of a great band, with OAG who did Malaysian rock proud, and with Jac, who whould have won. Que sera sera...


PS - More pics of Ikon tomorrow selain ga,bar dari persembahan Samsons.

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Berdekatlah...kepadaku...

Show Samsons tadik memang besh gila!!!! It was awesome!

It started off a horrible day tapi ended up pretty fine. First, rush ke Shah Alam amik my Guess watch yang tertinggal kat hotel kat Johor Bharu a month ago. Sentimental value punya pasal, sebab my sis gave that to me for my Christmas present about three years ago, risau nak mampos bila went missing. Lega when the hotel called and asked if I had lost my watch.

Lousy thing was that the night manager yang call aku, janji nak send to me tak penah get back to me, so si Zaff yang kebetulan interview kat sana smalam, amikkan tuk aku. Thanks a lot babe... walaopon masa ko call aku tuh kira kaco sebab aku tengah lepak ngan bebudak Samsons, especially menganyam ketupat gituh ngan si Bams, ko di maapkan. Matilah... hope you get the job, though I am going to miss a friend being so far and all.

Anyway, dari Shah Alam, aku pun rush ke Ampang sebab nak jemput someone. Leh dari Shah Alam aku salah masuk highway, naik yang ke Putrajaya/Cyberjaya. So where did I end up?

In f***ing Putrajaya. Bila nak kuar balik, I found myself in Shah Alam, yang exit ke Puchong. In other words, I wasted close to an hour. Damn!

Sebab tengok jam masa uh da 8.15pm, aku pun call dia mintak dia amik cab je jumpa kat PGRM. I got there about the same time dia sampai, which was a relief walaopon cam kesial sebab line DiGi aku wat hal, nak call cross network wat masaalah lak. Keji lah!

Tap tup dia muncul depan aku. Risau gak sebab dia minat satu dua lagu Samsons je, risau dia bosan. Pushed those thoughts aside sebab aku nak enjoy.

It was almost bloody 9.30pm before Samsons naik pentas, sebab had to layan si bangang punya 6ixth Sense yang sumbang, melalak cam orang tak betui. Honestly... camna nak puji band band kita. Bebudak Samsons baru dua tahun more or less, which is the same age as Sixth Sense. Still Sixth Sense lemau!

Their sound was horrible, the musicianship tahap kenduri kahwin, and the vocals? Mak aih! Cam pontianak mana mengilai! Either tak dengar haper atau menjerit memekik cam kena sunat kali kedua. Azab tahap gaban! Gaban pon tak azab camtuh...

In comparison, the moment Samsons came on and exploded onstage woth my FAVOURITE track of the moment in Seandainya (yang ramai tatau sebab first track dari second album Penantian Hidup), they were just a pleasure all the way around.
They were tight, and Bams was just amazing. Dari sora dia, gaya dia...lincah lonjat sana kemari, tapi tak cam beruk... too bad I couldn't say the same thing for vocalist 6ixth Sense yang sebelom ni cam kena serangan epilepsi.

Jangan kata aku tak patriotik sebab aku tak puji band kita sendiri... da burok performance... camna nak improve kalao tak sedar. Camni ke nak lawan band Indo? Jauh lagik nih...

Anyways.... sayang my favourite in Perbedaan takde, though thank goodness Luluh ada, which is another fave from Penantian Hidup.

Since aku minat the second album (and hate the first), it was a reverse situation sebab aku sing along to the songs from the second, while orang mainly sang along to favourites cam Naluri Lelaki and Kenangan Terindah which was so so jer bagik aku.

I actually ran out for a smoke masa Kenangan Terindah sebab phobia ngan kenangan yang tak indah langsung yang dikaitkan ngan lagu tuh. Heh...

But this is definitely a kenangan yang indah (ter ke tak tatau lagik la) sebab not only aku ngan someone, I really enjoyed myself despite a few irritants here and there.

Paling besh time lagu haper ek... most of it actually bila peminat peminat Indonesian kat sini melonjat beriya and built a human pyramid. They got attention of everyone with their antics. Kelakar pon ada tengok nak make it as high as possible (three men high).
Tapi yang aku nak gelak tuh ada one part tuh, yang meka built a pyramid, and it kind of semi-tumbled down. Nampak cam tugu negara lak ngan ada yang terlentang while ada sorang tuh holding his hand up trying to maintain a balance to avoid the whole thing just crashing down.

The other best part of the whole night was masa Seandainya...Bams yang tau aku suka gila lagu tuh saw me singing along (not too hard sebab we were quite upfront and I was the only one banging and singing along) pointed at me and winked. Heh... merasalah aku dari dulu mencik Samsons dan jadik fan.

Matilah jadik groupie lak ni.

Should I mention that lagu tertentu menjadi lebih istimewa ngan kehadiran seseorang?
Rasa nak sangat ikut meka ke Johor for their show there.

Erm... anyway, spent the remainder of the night with some friends, and erm... someone yang for some reason... treated me better (housemate ada tegur ke nih)

Well, apapon, aku malas pikir. Take it slow, and enjoy the ride...kan?

Nak tidur dulu. Esok lak ada Ikon Asean... so we see how that goes.

Ingat, aku wat ala live coverage, blogging from PICC the showdown antara Jaclyn Victor (Malaysia), Vina Morales (Philippines) and Judika (Indonesia).

Kategori ni aku ramalkan Jac akan juara, but then again it all boils down to performance and how they impress, so tu cuma prediction jer. But Vina ni membosankan (though visually stunning I have to admit) while si Judika ni, no competition langsung. Lagikpun, mamat yang second placed for Indonesian Idol ni... entah la... lemau semacam in comparison.

As for bands, it's OAG (Malaysia), against Tahta (Indonesia) and Kjwan (Philippines).

My prediction?

Kjwan, because they are just mind-blowing! I hope OAG can pull off an upset though and prove Malaysian bands kick ass. Tahta? Buang masa je... lain la kalao Samsons yang dapat jadik wakil Indonesia.

FOR MORE READING ON IKON CHAMPIONS
(click on wiki or official site for the respective sites- where applicable)
Solo category
Jaclyn Victor - Malaysia (wiki) (official site)
Vina Morales - Philippines (wiki) (official site)
Judika - Indonesia (wiki) (official site)
Group category
OAG - Malaysia (wiki) (official site)
Kjwan - Philippines (wiki) (official site)
Tahta - Indonesia (wiki) (official site)

So bring you banners and stuff, and let's support our talents. Skang bukan masa nak sokong artis mana ke, nak merungut sapa layak sapa tak. Skang demi semangat patriotic, kita sokong our talents and hope they'll shine and do us proud tomorrow night!


PS - Aku tak pasti meka semua nak nyanyi apa. Tapi Jac ada bagitau Gemilang will be one, while the other segment will be a medley of three P. Ramlee songs. Walaopon dia tamau cita sangat, yang aku leh bagitau, Getaran Jiwa and another two.
OAG will be singing Nawaitu, Beautifool dan Dayang.
Category winners will receive US$25,000 (RM85,500) and a trophy and Sarimah and Dominic Lau akan host the event. Stay tuned for on the spot updates!

PS Pt II - Aku update pics dari konsert Samsons ASAP pas dapat email dari member ok. Me, myself aku malas masa tuh nak amik pics sebab nak banging skali. Heh...

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Bam bam!

Ok...I have to say this first! Esok jangan lupa ke Menara PGRM kat Cheras for Samsons live in concert! Heh...tu pun kalao ada ticket atau invite yang berikan percuma oleh DiGi pada subscriber meka.

Untung jadik pelanggan kan...kan...kan!!!

Aku going for sure!!!! Tambah agik sebab Bams janji nak main my favourite songs from their second album Penantian Hidup in Seandainya. Kalau rezeki ada, mintak mintak lar other faves cam Perbedaan ada.

Aku sebenarnya tak minat sangat kat meka ni mula mula, and I especially despise Kenangan Terindah sebab that used to be my ex punya callback ringtone. So a lot of bad memories with that tune. A lousy excuse I know, but I never found them all that great. Overrated I used to think. As bad as Radja (yang hancus live) and Nidji.

Tapi pas second album ni, aku convinced gila meka amazing.Aku letak above Dewa, and below my all time fave Indo band, Sheila On 7.

Sebelom show meka esok, ada press conference siang tadik. Aku first time cover meka nih, sebab tak penah minat nak cover meka sebelum sebelum ni meka mai sini. Wanted to see, tul ke orang cakap, Samsons ni semua humble dan soft spoken.

And the verdict?

The are an AMAZING band yang humble, happy go lucky and very friendly!

Tapi yang penting, my fave Indo rocker, Bams had one for the album with me. Amik pic bawah tuh. Yeay!!! Keep in touch yer Bams... such a teddybear dia nih. And ko pun Irfan! We both love Eros' work, so would love to hear your upcoming stuff. Yeap, just in case you're interested they're already planning their third album! Ok tak pic ni....(erm...nampaknya naik agik aku nih)

Yang pentingnya esok aku akan gi layan Samsons ngan dia on a...erm...non date. Hey babe...aku da tau lagu apa aku nak dedicate kat ko.

Anyways pas abih PC aku ngan Farihad nak jejalan shopping. Sandy, boss Universal usik aku mintak jadik tour guide sebab bebudak Samsons nak shopping kat Sungai Wang. Haiyo! Tamau la. Kang orang ingat aku ni groupie ke.. pekerja meka ke...

So Farihad and I went around, but in the end we couldn't elak nak gi Sungai Wang because I needed a new bag cause my old messenger bag (not my laptop bag) ripped akibat slalu bak lebih muatan.

Sana asik serempak bebudak Samsons yang semua pecah on their own (tapi escorted ngan a bodyguard each just in case) and everytime bump mesti gelak. Baik jadik tour guide jer camni.

We went about even after I got my bag, saja nak window shopping, then aku joined Rudy ke Aswara nak layan teater experimental. Saja je sebab kak Ellie Suriarty lakon, so nak gak tengok. Since I had no other plans...malas dok lepak sampai member semua ada masa nak lepak, so decided to catch it. Lagipon lama tak layan teater.

Tajuk pementasan Monodrama, and it was basically just that. A dramatic staging of monologues, by Khalid Salled and kak Ellie.

Khalid's piece was too self-absored, though interesting. Tapi kak Ellie punya, amazing! She blended dance, movement, costume and lighting to make the minimal presentation a visual experience apart from the wonderful monologue of a strong woman, scorned and seeking vindication (so familiar!)

Me likey! Nak amik pics, cam phone aku bukan elok sangat, so ni je la leh share.



Two more days to go for Monodrama, though aku tak pasti esok dan lusa sapa yang perform because I know there are some other monologues dan performers. Abih jlayan Monodrama, lawat kak Ellie jap say hi and then gerak balik to central KL nak lepak.

Had a fun night on my non date. Enough said. Got sloshed too though, which I am so going to regret tomorrow. Eh wait a minute... no regrets sebab spending time together tomorrow again. And maybe spending some time together on Sunday.

Possible? Don't know. Malas pikir. Kang lain lak jadinya. Just enjoy each day that comes for now.
Anyways, smalam, nak add sikit. Pas aku pack up my laptop nak gerak dari 1 Utama aku jalan nak ke parking amik keta, aku nampak someone pakai cap yang muka familiar. Rupanya...EBI!

Dia nampak aku terus panggil. Rupanya skali ngan Candy dan Mila. Apa lagik, amik kesempatan catch up and sembang jap sebab lama tak jumpa. Mila lain la...baru arituh jumpa.
Apa lagik.. amik pic terbaru sat.

Candid shot


Ebi tambah ensem. Candy tambah...erh.. wat muka camna tuh sayang oi.


Alahai... Mila tambah comei!!!


Alamak...nak tidur la. Nak beauty sleep dulu. Esok nak layan Samsons.. yeah yeah!

Tunggu entry besok pasal their concert and lusa Ikon... live dari PICC lagik.
Going...going...going...gone...

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Yazer, Impak Maksima and dia

My entries berapa ari nih kes malas sikit, so ari nih aku nak make up for it. Yerlah..bukan apa...kesibukan tahap gaban sebab aku ada packed weekend. Ni pun posting ala wireless dari Starbucks kat 1 Utama pas abih keja pelbagai yang dihantar melalui email sebab terkenangkan deadline. Noisy areas like this, public and where I can indulge in a drink and smoke at the same time make me function better than the office, so time out tuk abihkan stock three articles agik, a weekend personality feature, my column and an article.

Da abih ni baru sempat update blog again.

Sebenarnya ada kat 1 Utama sebab pagi tadik ada preview Impak Maksima arahan Ahmad Idham. Surprisingly enough, aku bangun kul 8 pagi! Wow!! Awalnya! Heh...matilah aku.
Sampai kat screening konon 9.45am with time to kill. Erm... It was ok ok la. Effects and stunts bagus, tapi mak aih!!! Si Yatt tuh takleh lakon ok. Kayu smacam. Not to mention lakonan yang tahap kegedikan gaban! Merasalah!

And Opie Zami was horrible!!! Aku tepuk tangan time character dia mati. Leh???

The storyline biasa je, and CGI horror! Burok nak mampos!

Tapi kalao nak tengok a movie for its action suka kot sebab it was pretty awesome from that aspect walaopon camerawork dodgy sikit.

My favourite actor delivered yang penting, namely Zul Huzaimy!!! Yeah yeah!!!
Eizlan, Cat dan Awal ok jer, while there was too little of Diya. Dynaz? Bolehlah...

Abang Zul confident pose macho, while Cat pose...erm...


Yes Yatt... your acting was TWO horrible (talk about bad caption - but nevermind, her acting was similarly horrible) dan Eizlan mainain.


Awal ngan si Yatt.


Pas abih, sekali ngan Juan dan photographer dia dan member dia pusing 1 Utama jap. Menyesal terus! Ada sale!!!!

As a good shopaholic, I caved in to my craving and bought two pairs of pin striped pants (black with white stripes and back with red stripes - suka kan colour black ni) and also a pair of funky jeans. They were CHEAP!!! SALE!!! SALE!! SALE!!!

I love sales!

Bought a couple of miscellaneous items...and then masa Juan and friends nak balik, tetiba kami bump into an old friend yang lama tak jumpa.

Yeap...that's Yazer for you. Dia sorang masa tuh, so since aku pun alone, dia joined me for tea (beriya tea katanya feeling omputeh) and had a catch up session.

Lama tak jmpa dia... last bebetul lepak ngan dia pon over a year ago kot masa kuar ngan dia dan Felix ronda KL. So sembang and found out what everyone was doing... and samaada Ekin sihat ke tak. Oops....!!!

Sorry Yazer...usik jer bah!

Anyways, pada meka yang tunggu album dia, it should be out after Raya, because it's completed and tunggu nak shoot cover album and then release da. First song, hopefully in this month camtuh da leh kedengaran kat coring radio.

And I heard one of the songs from the album and it was AWESOME!!! Ass kickin' rock!

Aku hope his debut album will be as good. Lagu tuh yang aku pun tatau title, hasil M. Nasir yang lain dari lain...so mintak mintak ler the whole album surprise camtuh gak.

Pas we hung out about two hours and borak about everything under the sun... termasuk cita baru kuarga Akademi Fantasia musim ketiga, abang Nasir and Luncai Emas and rock music in general as well as perkembagan dia.., aku pun nak gerak ke keta so we parted ways.

Amik barang dari keta aku ke Starbucks lak tapi takde seat baik punya. So ended up next door kat Nando's overlooking the highway which was quite soothing actually.

Finished stok keja and dapat SMS dari seseorang. Memula plan tak jumpa ari ni... tapi dia ajak dinner. Erm. Me likey!

Since aku free dan esok leh masuk keja lambat, of course kejap lagik ni nak jumpa dia supper. Dinner actually sebab dia lom makan and me too walaopon da lewat.

Lagilpon a nice way to cap off coming up to the end of the week sebab weekend kind of fun, and definitely banyak benda nak posting.

Esok ada press interviews with Samsons!!! Walaopon memula first album tak minat sangat sebab da layan their latest album in Penantian Hidup aku da jadik peminat! So esok interview with Bams and Co. Sabtu layan show meka, and Ahad ada Ikon.

Packed!

Meanwhile... nak offline da. Nak gi jemput dia. Heh...
By the way, ni pic amik tadik luar GSC. Yeap the Homer Simpson in the pic is the one that made headlines after being 'stolen'. Merasalah jadik Simpson katanya.

Perut da lebih kuang cam Homer Simpson katanya!! Keji!

Ok la hope aku da 'tebus dosa' bagik meka yang tunggu updates. And trust me, the next few days aku akan update lebih. By the way, Ikon seperti biasa sebab kat PICC aku akan wat live crossover gituh kat blog. So kalao orang online, refresh ler tuk on the spot report gituh ek.

Bye guys... and hope you guys have a fun night like I'm going to. Huggies for all.

PS - Zaff, good luck on your job interview kat Johor Bahru ek.

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Sigh...

Another date today.... well well well... malas update. Heh... jangan salah anggap. Busy day. Ari ni clear stock of four stories.

Amik ko!

Malam semalam sebenarnya tak sempat elaborate ada event KRU, so lepak ajak dia sekali tuk dinner. Sempat catch up ngan Adam sebab lama tak dok sembang ngan dia gak.

But takde pic sebab malas.. and preoccupied lak ngan bebenda lain yang lebih penting. Matilah aku!

Did my interview, and once we finished the event, continued with my date yang bukan date. Seronok gak ada yang understanding keja nih. Alamak...

Berangan lak. Erm...kang kejap agik nangis sapa nak jawab!

Kan??!!!

Takde maknanya. Nothing's going on... YET!

Apapon petang tadik lepak ngan Vern, abang Bad and Rudy once settle keja. Thanks abang Bad for your belated birthday present, though honestly I would love to have something you picked out for yourself.

Kang aku ada time aku tunjuk part of the present yang aku pilih sendiri dari abang Bad yang aku suka gila. Tu la... nama kawan tatau aku suka apa. Merasalah carut aku kata taste aku pelik!

Keji!

Anyway, pas we were done... it was on to -non-date number three.

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I'm Not Single

Jangan terkejut ngan title. I AM still single...tapi tu lah tajuk filem baru arahan dan ditulis oleh Pierre Andre. Yeap, that was my assignment today...announcement of the shooting of the movie yang akan bermula sekitar Kuala Lumpur dan Fraser Hill this Saturday.

Besh gak. Lama tak jumpa Pierre, so sempat bual panjang ngan. Matila usik pasal gosip ngan Fasha je. Malas nak tulis lelebih pasal movie tu sebab shooting pon lom, but nama paling besar is Pierre ngan Farid Kamil la. Ni pics terbaru. Pose Pierre malu malu lak, while si Farid wat pose konsep dan tema gatal.. erm... gatal mata!! Bukan lain ok!

Event tuh kat Metropoint Kajang, which is honestly one end of the gawddawmned world... but since movie ni bawah Metrowealth, dan restoran tuh, Lemon milik David Teo save budget dan sekali personal promotions kot, so kill two birds with one stone la. Abih je event, aku ke KLCC sebab erm... ada orang nak jumpa.

Unofficially date number two. What a good week this is turning out to be compared to last week's hell.

I am going to enjoy this while it lasts, cause knowing me, happy times like this never do. Heh...so much for the optimist eh?

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Isn't it just strange how things work

Ok...so I know I've been whining a lot lately over someone, who by the way dia layan aku, was so hardly worth the misery. Kan?

Well, I guess life goes on... and so I've moved on. Like with the demise of everything, kena la ada masa nak ala ala nak berkabung and all.

But by today... it's finally over. And I've moved on. Or so I hope.

Yes, but if I tell the reason why...mesti aku kena carut.

Last Saturday night, when I went out to party with friends, aku ada jumpa someone masa nak balik.aku ada peluang nak sembang ngan someone yang aku penah admire dari jauh.

Oops...rebound alert!

Nope...dia ni aku kaco kaco usik camtuh jer. Rupanya, si As tuh kenal ngan dia sebab penah ajak couple. Cait...and I thought ko crush on me gila gila As. Gila ke haper.

Anyway we chatted and all...and that was the first time we really talked sebab sebelom ni penah dok semeja makan tapi tak berani nak tegur.

Since then, by concidence, we managed to chat online! Nevermind the details...but kelakar gak.

So we chatted... and found out we were both going through a similar phase. It was nice to talk to someone yang not only claim to be open and insightful, but actually was.

Awal awal memasing da kuar warning, on rebound alert, so stayed away from topics yang involve crush and all.

But since the chat semalam, went out today and had.. our first 'date'...erm... hanging out since we didn't want to call it a date. Just a friend. Really...

So yes, I am officially ok beginning today. The start of a new week and hopefully a rejuvenated me. Apapon...malas nak posting sebenarnya.

Tapi ada benda nak gripe about. Like how last Saturday aku nak take-away kat Pizza Hut kat Bukit Bintang... and the place was SWAMPED with Arab tourists. Seriously kan..meka ni kurang ajar gila!

The way they talk and carry themselves...arrogant abih!

Lantak la ko labu....

Honestly pas memacam cita horror aku dengar oasal Middle East tourists here dan perangai meka from friends in the hotel line... I really pity the Pizza Hut employees, having witnessed cara meka meninggikan suara, make ridiculous demands...and generally treat people like shit.

Erm...

That cheesed me off a little. Rasa je nak maki meka ni, especially when this oversized hairball cut the line in front of me.

Cuma takut he was strapped with explosives or something (SO RACIST!!! - but maapkan statement hanjeng aku ni sebab tension pikir balik).

Budak Pizza Hut pun roll their eyes and gave me a look cam "forgive these idiots gituh" so aku pun diam. Yang besh nya order aku lagik cepat dari meka.

Lagik la tak puas hati pelancong pelancong kecoh tuh.

But as I sat down to devour my pizza kat kak Ara (lepak sana tapi cuma malas rasanya mau makan nasi), there was this failure of a drag queen yang dok depan aku that almost made me lose my appetite.

Tip for adik-adik feeling cantik.

If you are overweight and have something that's bigger than mere love handles, please jangan overconfident pakai bareback without a bra. Erm... wear a trench coat kalao leh ek cause that was just fugly to see everything hanging out.

Perut yang terkuar dari tepi tuh...erm.. definitely beyond a turn-off.

So I'm not exactly Mr Abs.... but I don't go flauting myself for the world to see. Eew..!!!!

Erm... not quite siri perosak selera but almost there cause I did kind of lose my appetite after that scene.

Thank goodness for meeting and spending that introductory kind of time ngan that person who made me feel good about myself again. Walaopon si As jeles kami rancak sembang, dan aku silap terlepas kata dak tuh cute.... heh... but it was worth every moment of going out to try and cheer myself up.

Yang pentingnya... aku rasa....aku da recovered da.

Still a little depressed over what happened... but not wallowing in misery. So that's an improvement...right?

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Everybody hurts

It's 6am when I'm writing this. I've been out for a night, haven't slept, and just checked my mail and everything else online.

I sent a last message to that person to apologise about 24 hours ago, and just tried and explain everything that happened. The madness, salah aku... and what I felt..

I hoped beyond hope that at least, we could be friends.

There was no reply.

And I have been officially deleted from that person's myspace account.

Not the response I hope for... not that I hoped for one.

And not that I really got one except having the last door slammed in my face, to try and salvage apa yang tinggal... but apparently... talk is cheap.

We talk constantly of so many things, but it's easier to talk than live it.

I can deal with losing someone's respect for me... or anything else.

I can deal with losing someone who made me happy for a couple of weeks at least.

But I cannot deal with the fact that my love, can bring so much hate.

And it's been a really long time since I cried. Since I shed any tears. Da lama jadik batu. Susah nak perah airmata.. bukan kebal... tapi da lama jadik kebas, numb to any pain, dan da lama tak sampai nitis air mata kerana seseorang.

It didn't come automatically.

I was just... numb.

I played REM's Everybody Hurts. That's my life for you, there's always a song that defines that moment in my life. And someone, even though everyone keeps telling me not to allow the hurt to take over... it's hard.

And I am hurtng.

A lot.

Didn't expect my friendship to be thrown out like that.

I swallowed my last ounce of pride in trying to explain, and apologise for the mistakes I know I made.

But all I have right now is tears dripping on my laptop as I write the most honest and impromptu entry I have done in a long time.

I started this blog to get over hurt.

And now I've come full circle.

It's bacl to writing about hurt.

BTTB - I know you'll probably... you might read this... and I hope one day, you'll find it in your heart to realise, I do want you at least as a friend in my life.

Very few things make me smile. You did.

Things may not go as I hoped for... but don't throw me out of your life.

I know I hurt you. And you are hurting me too.

Everybody hurts.

How can love incite so much hate.

So much anger.

I don't know. I don't understand this.

All I do know is it hurts.

Beyond belief.

It hurts.

Thank you again for everything. I wish you nothing but the best in your life. I really honestly do.

And no, there is no anger from me. No hate.

The pain is there.

But I suppose that's life. It just sucks...as my sister always says...."life's a bitch... then you die".

I'm strong. I can get over this. I can forgive.

But why am I crying... may be I need to, before I'm forced to move on.

Goodbye. I hope not forever... but until you can one day forgive me.

I know I hurt you. I hurt now too.

Everybody hurts...

sometimes...

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Karaoke and crap

Went out with my friend Bernard. Ingat nak sambung clubbing cam smalam nak lupakan all the bull I'm going through. Tapi dalam perjalanan nak lepak kat Bangsar ngan dia sebelom we make our way to the dancefloor, dapat panggilan dari kawan.

Katanya ada pertandingan karaoke, nak kita jadik judge. Selepas dua tiga kali dia call, tak sampai hati nak say no, so iyakan jer lah kan.

Rushed, and sampai just as they were starting.

Now generally I hate karaoke competitions.

Now I know why.

It was BORING! Bad choice of songs, worse singing and even more dreaful dressing.
Pertandingan ni kat Uptown Danau Kota, and I was surprised that there was like over twenty contestants in the final.

Layan...

Erm... realised a few things. Tatau ler aku imagine ker haper.

But jahat gak bebudak jaga snoke machine ni ek.

Everytime ada peserta yang erm... kurang elok naik stage, mesti dapat effect smoke machine.

Mula mula ingat gimik.. lama lama cam carutan lak.

Cam nak cover muka peserta lak. Heh..."you've been smoked!!!"

Smokescreen takyah tengok muka kot.

Jahat kan!!!

Anyway... the competition took almost four and a half hours. And I think I've now gone deaf.

Daripada ramai ramai tuh, I think only two were decent... not even good.

Oh well...lap telinga yang da berdarah abih ni jap ek.

In the end, among the top three, ada lak dak nyanyi sumbang nak mampos ni. Erm.. malas nak cakap apa, tapi rasanya ada pihak yang 'untung' malam semalam pas competition. Oops... geli lak aku nak judge kan competition nak selit orang yang di menangkan.

And it wasn't too different from another competition going on at the same time.

Got updates from Bernard yang communicate ngan member yang layan Festival Filem Malaysia.

So much for Ke Arah Kecemerlangan Filem Malaysia.. Cinta won Best Film, which I don't really mind.

But Shuhaimi Baba again for Best Director? You've got to be joking! For that piece of crap called

Waris Jari Hantu? Let's face it, they'll never let Yasmin Ahmad win. PERIOD!

Strange kan how our talents are celebrated by the world, and yet, back home, reality is so much more different.

Best original story? Waris Jari Hantu? Come on!

Sheesh... dah la nomination ngarut 13 in total. Tak kena tol.

Whatever. Mukhsin nak overlook sangat... lantak la. Kalau baru ni Mukhsin leh menang silver award kat NETPAC Festiva at Jogjakarta... FFM nampaknya tak lama lagik obsolete la.

Wat syok sendiri stakat nak puji effort yang takde pembaharuan atau revolutionary at all. As good as a two bit karaoke competition at the end of the day. Only difference is, at least that competition takde la result ngarut AND televise for Malaysia to see.

Local Oscars konon... cam kesial...

The world recognises us in our talents, and we? Our own industry recognises mediocre standard movies, whcih are equivalent to made for TV shite.

FILEM TERBAIK
Cinta

PENGARAH FILEM TERBAIK
Suhaimi Baba

PELAKON LELAKI TERBAIK
Rusdi Ramli Filem (Waris Jari Hantu)

PELAKON WANITA TERBAIK
Vanida Imran Filem (The Red Kebaya)

LAKON LAYAR TERBAIK
Mira Mustaffa (Cinta)

CERITA ASAL TERBAIK
Shuhaimi Baba (Waris Jari Hantu)

SINEMATOGRAFI TERBAIK
Khalid Zakaria (Puaka Tebing Biru)

PENYUNTING TERBAIK
Akash Sing (Cinta)

SKOR ASAL TERBAIK
Shamsul Cairel (Waris Jari Hantu)

PENATAAN SENI TERBAIK
Nazrul Asraff (Puaka Tebing Biru)

PENATAAN BUNYI TERBAIK
Addaudio Ex Sdn. Bhd. (The Red Kebaya)

PELAKON PEMBANTU LELAKI TERBAIK
Dato’ Haji Rahim Razali (Cinta)

PELAKON PE
Azean Irdawaty (Waris Jari Hantu)

ANUGERAH CIPTA PELAKON HARAPAN LELAKI
Azizan Nin (Nana Tanjung)

ANUGERAH CIPTA PELAKON HARAPAN WANITA
Natasha Hudson (Chermin)

PELAKON KANAK-KANAK TERBAIK
Mohd Syafie Naswip (Mukhsin)

LAGU TEMA ASAL TERBAIK
Tam Spider(Cicak-Man)

Pengarah Harapan:
Zarina Abdullah (Chermin)

Filem Box Office:
Jangan Pandang Belakang (RM5.5 juta)

Anugerah Cipta Filem Digital Terbaik
Chalanggal

Anugerah Cipta Filem Pendek
Pintu

Anugerah Cipta Filem Animasi Terbaik
Helping Hand

Pereka Kostum
Shamsul Yusof (The Red Kebaya)

Poster Terbaik
L’ Agenda Production Sdn Bhd (The Red Kebaya)

Dokumentari Terbaik
Jejak Rasul - Muhammad s.a.w Episod - Israk Mikraj (2006)

Anugerah Khas Juri
Zombi Kampung Pisang
Cicakman
Profesor A Razak Mohaiden

Anugerah Filem Bukan Melayu
Possesed

Ni full list of winners yang aku dapat from Budiey. I think it's mostly crap though. Congrats anyway to Cinta and The Red Kebaya, and also to adik Syafie.

Lain tuh...whatever la. Enjoy those trophies, cause they're empty wins as far as I'm concerned.
Malas...back to party mode...

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