Dia

[klubbkidd's rave], my blog, my pride and joy that has helped me through so much in times of pain and frustration...by allowing me an extension to spread the anger, depression, frustration, love, joy, ecstacy and whatever else it is I feel in the vast comprehension of the human mind...has obviously...undergone a slight change.

Welcome to my refurbished home. Bayangkan je blog aku da kena ngan Casa Impian (muntah teringat mamat Eric tuh sat...)

I cannot say what made me do it.

Mungkin kerana kesedaran aku tak akan bersama 'dia' dan aku merasakan aku mengundurkan diri daripada terus berharap untuk sesuatu keajaiban.

Whatever it is...I needed to do something...and this is the little I could do to take my mind off things.

Thankfully, as it happened, I rediscovered the joys of friendship in the prime of innocence when I gathered with some old mates dari sekolah rendah aku.

Some six hours later, and RM75 spent just for drinks at the mamak, I came away almost in tears teringat how easy it all was back then.

Also said farewell to my mentor, in a little get together we did. Sad...

It's unexplainable, but suddenly I feel a void in my life.

Mungkin kerana aku telah berjumpa 'dia', and I feel more hopeless than ever in my search to find someone to spend my life with.

Malas fikir....blog ni ler aku layan...came across two poems today. Indonesian works...aku rasa aku berundur dengan both of them which somehow...I don't know...has a personal ring to it for me...

Aku nak tidur dulu...sambil mimpikan 'dia'...kerana disana sajalah kami dapat bersama...to the one...listen to Your Song and remember me...

MATA KESUNYIAN
Pada mata, sebuah dunia kutemukan, jalinan cerita
Manusia hidup dengan kesendiriannya
Di tengah riuh gemuruh

Kesunyian di mana batasnya
Dari kelam hitam mata
Seribu tikaman terasa menyentuh jantungku

MENCATAT NAMAMU
Dalam hati masih ada kegundahan itu
Secara perlahan membakar angan

Dalam sunyi mengingat wajahmu,
berderai potret pecah
terbanting tangan-tangan waktu

Begitu kukuh memisahkan kekinianku
dengan cerita dulu

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