Sunday, January 15, 2012

The Copycat Syndrome

An article I found which I found a charming read given all the bullshit I go through with copycats.

The Copycat Syndrome

Plagiarists at work.

Illustration by Charlie Powell. Click image to expand.

We may know pornography when we see it, but the same can't be said of plagiarism. Ever since it was revealed last month that several passages in Ian McEwan's Atonementclosely resemble sections of Lucilla Andrews' World War II memoir, No Time For Romance, critics have debated whether the similarities constitute wholesale "plagiarism" or mere literary "discourtesy." The one thing everyone does agree on, apparently, is the necessity of policing plagiarism, whatever it may be. A partial list of authors recently accused (rightly or wrongly) includes Dan Brown, Yann Martel, Kaavya Viswanathan, J.K. Rowling, playwright Bryony Lavery, Doris Kearns Goodwin, Stephen Ambrose, and Alan Dershowitz. In an op-ed in early 2003, Condoleezza Rice even cited Saddam Hussein's habitual plagiarism as evidence of the leader's fundamental treachery.But the rhetoric of creative originality doesn't fully explain our preoccupation with footnoting and credit—or the recent accusations against Dershowitz, Goodwin, and Ambrose. The historians were attacked for using language from other historians—in Ambrose's case, from a writer he cited in the book's notes—without quotation marks. Dershowitz was accused in 2003 by Norman Finkelsteinof "fraud, falsification, plagiarism" for having borrowed many of the citations inThe Case For Israel directly from another contemporary book—in other words, for using them without having checked the primary sources himself. (As evidence, Finkelstein pointed to Dershowitz's verbatim reproduction of errors in citation made by the original author, Joan Peters.) Judging by the "originality" standard, what Dershowitz did hardly seems like plagiarism. He did not copy Peters' actual words or pass the quoted authors' works off as his own; he just took a shortcut. In the case of Kearns, adding quotation marks to the passages she had borrowed wouldn't have made her work more original. It just would have given credit where credit was due.
Our distaste for plagiarism is usually framed in terms of our affection for originality. "We prize originality above everything and place a high value on novelty of expression," Robert McCrum wrote in the Observer, examining the outcry over McEwan. In The Little Book of Plagiarism, an engaging new study of the concept, law professor and JudgeRichard A. Posner attributes today's "increasing attention" to plagiarism largely to a "cult of originality" first shaped by the Romantics—who venerated individual genius—and further intensified by a 21st-century modern market economy that values novelty in its "expressive works." Obviously, originality does have something to do with all the fuss: Most of us expect writers—especially novelists and poets—to have a distinctive voice and literary style. We carve out exceptions for writers like Shakespeare—a plagiarist by modern-day standards—because they are creative in their use of borrowed material; such copying isn't "slavish" but inventive, or, as Posner puts it, "The imitation is producing value." Those who don't recontextualize borrowed work—like Kaavya Viswanathan—we censure.
These examples help bring a crucial issue of plagiarism into focus. Behind the talk of originality lurks another preoccupation, less plainly voiced: a concern about the just distribution of labor. In plenty of instances of so-called plagiarism, what bothers us isn't so much a lack of originality as the fact that the plagiarizer has stolen someone else's work—the time it took to write the words or do the necessary research. The cribbed student essay—which Posner views as a particularly insidious form of plagiarism, committed by approximately one-third of high-school and college students—isn't an academic crime because a C student has tried to pass himself as a Matthew Arnold in the making. It's an academic crime because the student who buys his thesis from a paper mill has shirked the labor that his fellow students actually perform.
In fact, labor and plagiarism were entwined from the start. The word derives from the Latinplagiarius, referring to "kidnapper." Around the first century A.D., Roman satirist Martial gave us its modern sense when he wrote an epigram complaining that another man (whom he labeled a "plagiarius") had kidnapped his writings (which he metaphorically labeled his slaves) and was passing them off as his own. What had been a metaphor for a slave-stealer—someone who got labor for free—became a symbolic expression for the theft of words. As Glenn Reynolds and Peter Morgan observed in a 2002 essay, the ancients who gave us the notion of plagiarism didn't object to creative imitation. On the contrary, they encouraged it, knowing that there are only a limited number of good ideas in the world: "Imitation was bad only when it was disguised, or a symptom of laziness. It was not denounced simply on grounds of being 'unoriginal.' " And in his excellent book Stolen Words: Forays Into the Origins and Ravages of Plagiarism, Thomas Mallon notes that writers didn't care about plagiarism much "until they thought of writing as their trade."
It may be less obvious that issues of labor lurk behind our anxieties when it comes to fiction. But even the McEwan affair, when you think about it, boils down to a concern that he cut corners at someone else's expense. At this juncture, McEwan has published roughly a dozen works of fiction, most of them critically acclaimed, and is revered for his distinctive prose style. In the case of Atonement, it can hardly be said that the presence of two cribbed passages, comprising a few hundred words, profoundly alters our perception of McEwan's overall literary "originality." For one thing, Atonement is hundreds of pages long. For another, McEwan didn't exactly hide his borrowing: Andrews is acknowledged in the book. Why, exactly, do we care if a few sentences resemble a historical source? And what do we think would be gained from his having painstakingly substituted different words from those Andrews had used? The answer, clearly, has to do with work; it seems unfair that Andrews had to sit at her desk and painstakingly consider how to describe cleaning a soldier's wounds, while McEwan could merely sit down and effectively copy out her sentences, moving on to the rest of his story (while getting paid more than she did, presumably).
Posner may be right to connect our obsession with plagiarism to the rise of a market economy that values individualism in cultural works. But perhaps it also stems from a collision of contemporary ideas about what accomplishment really is: the result of effortless gifts, or the fruition of hard labor? Americans are fond of the myth of hard work. As preternaturally gifted distance runner Steve Prefontaine puts it in the 1998 biopic Without Limits, "Talent is a myth." And recent studies have shown that the old joke about how to get to Carnegie Hall is based in quantifiable fact: The top tier of 20-year-old violinists, it turns out, practiced on average 2,500 hours more than violinists the next rank down. Yet contemporary culture pays quite a lot of lip service to the myth of innate talent, wildly overestimating, for instance, the contributions of single employees to companies.
Clearly, our post-Romantic awe at individual talent still lives on. But it is also clear, as Posner points out, that we don't actually believe art must be sui generis to be great. Plenty of good Hollywood movies, to take just one example, are highly imitative. Martin Scorsese's acclaimed new film The Departed is a remake of the 2002 Hong Kong film Infernal Affairs. * But critics didn't hold that against Scorsese; after all, he did the work of translating the film to a contemporary Boston setting. (This makes the film different from its predecessor, but hardly "original.") What really bothers us about plagiarism isn't the notion of influence itself, but the notion that a piece of writing has been effortless for the thief in question. Instead of worrying whether writers who borrow from other artists are fakers, perhaps we should be asking if they're slackers. It might make it easier to decide which kinds of influence to condone and which to condemn.



Original article : Slate

Saturday, January 14, 2012

Burger time!

After stressing out smalam, dan day hilang keletihan sedikit sebab tidur sepanjang hari ni, tonight was reserved for #TwtUpBurger. The 'tweet-up burger' (or burger gathering for Twitterers in case you're unfamiliar with the jargon) is where a bunch of Twitteres gather for the awesomest burger in the country.

Lokasi? Burger Zam. Sedap gila wei burger ni! Serious korang tak cuba, RUGI! Biar abang Zam niaga dari rumah je, tetap better than even the biggest of franchises. Home-made patties yang YUMMY! Nak alamat, check my previous blog entry pasal ni. Anyway, here are just some pics I snapped. Malas entry panjang-panjang.


Hah.... tu lah abang Zam. Dan tu lah rumah dia. Niaga small time tapi... meletup burger dia. Jap je da abih.

Check out the patties sizzling away. J-U-I-C-Y!!!



All the tweeps had at least two burgers - I could only down one. Kenyang gila sebab patties did humongous. And the prices are damn worth the burgers, so give it a try kalau korang area Danau Kota.



It was a great night of good food, awesome friends - followed up by #TwtUpHorror where my band of brothers had a horror movie marathon and more. Guys version of a pajama party lah. Phuttz jade tuan rumah, while the other that joined included Aizad, Elmi, Amir, Feris, Aizu and Dan. Best kot da lama semua tak menggila camni konsep bujang (da memang semua technically bujang- due je engaged)

Ah... this is the sort of off day that I love.

Friday, January 13, 2012

Mobbing

Today was a TIRING day. Serious sial... I started the day at 9am. Not funny considering that I am a nocturnal creature that can barely function anytime before noon.

Yes, hari ni hari for my smart mob to take place kat Pavilion. The venue has been one of my ideal spots to do a flashmob or smart mob for the longest time.

Sebelum ni hanya angan-angan je. Tapi sejak hari tu kansel dari nak wat kat KL Sentral yang susah nak mampus nak kejasama, Pavilion menjadi second choice which was actually one of my main first choices for the longest time.

Aku tinggal dua tiga tempat je yang nak wat mob sebelom I give up this activity. Letih down tiap kali nak wat mob ni. Gerenti sumpah seranah seminggu sebab tak cukup tidur, rehat dan sebagainya.

Still, by the end of today, it was so worth it.

Biarlah Friday the 13th hari ni pun take lag. Am so loving it because despite hurt hard last minute as usual, it actually went off without a glitch.

I am so thankful to my crew who did it all so well and pulled the project off with no problems. Thank you Apeng, my protege yang than makian dua trak sebab standard aa aku nail psycho time projek camni. Also thanks to Boojae, Epul and the rest of Floor Fever and the dancers under the Funky Fresh Family for your commitment and making my life easier - and more fun.

I also thank my J Play's new affiliates in Phuture Phlow Films for their hard work, notably Adam and Kroll. Korang the best la. All the camera and sound crew involved, korang memang the bomb.

For those of you who missed it, the mob was for HTC and the Sensation XE with Beats Audio. Hence, tengok moka aku yang letih ni, sill perasan the Beats headphones yang menghiasi leher ku itu.

Dan jangan tafsir. Memang rambut aku skang dalam proses kaler camtu. Bukan naik uban sebab stress, walaopon rasanya memang ada sehelai dua yang terhasil dalam seminggu dua ni pon.

Matilah. Seriously, despite minor glitches, it was an awesome mob, and I am proud that we pulled it off yet again.

J Play remains THE most amazing smart mob organizers in the country, with no competition from any party, and here's hoping we continue to grow as that, apart from the other business ventures that we embark on.

Will update the video soon, so hope korang to long sebar and make it viral just like out iconic ones in KLCC and Bukit Bintang.

Ok... nak rehat sat... I need sleep!

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Boulder Hill

Oooo yesterday masa tengah stress tahap gaban, baru nak keluar rumah nak ke another meeting yang panjang lebar of the many I have to attend, dapat gak benda yang wat aku senyum cam dial. Hik.

You guys probably know my obsession with toys from the 80s kan - specifically M.A.S.K. cartoon toys. Well, hair tu aku spend over RM700 for Rhino and Switchblade. Then in the same day, spent another RM700 plus on Boulder Hill.

Boulder Hill ni special sikit because memang susah nak dapat sket kalau banding semua barangan mainan M.A.S.K. It's the headquarters tuk orang baik dalam kartun tu... kira iconic gila. Aku masa kecik nak sangat sebab masa tu kumpul dapat sampai semua orang jahat lengkap wo!

Tapi zaman dulu Boulder Hill ni kira mahal la gak sebab kira dua ratus lebih Ringgit kot. Matilah dulu tak dapat, skang beli da lebih RM300. Postage and shipping dari UK pon sama harga ngan barang. Sial jek.

Tapi pas dua minggu kot... delay sebab Christmas and New Year, akhirnya semalam SAMPAI!

Atas tu before converting. Tu the headquarters, Boulder Hill - guest starring some of the iconic M.A.S.K. vehicles I have like Thunderhawk, Raven and Rhino. Tu sebelom did bertukar... pic bawah ni pas did convert. Merasalah!

Oooh.. me likey it a lot!

Memang angin aku happy je sepanjang hari pastu. These are more than toys. They're 26 year-old memories, a representation of a time in my life which was so far removed from the life I have now.

I don't know... it may seem immature, but honestly, my M.A.S.K. toys allow me to hold on to past memories worth holding on, to remind myself that nothing is impossible - like owning a Boulder Hill. Just that sometimes... it takes just a little more time to achieve and attain.

Speaking of which, my talent, Amir Jahari hari ni da record did nya second single, Gelisah. Yeay! Producer same macam time Tanpamu - Anas Amdan - and it will also be released via Kasi Gegar.

In fact, tunggu announcement special minggu depan.

Am proud that Amir is one of the most notable newcomers of 2011 in the local music industry, and I hope we can hold the pace and continue full steam ahead for 2012.

Eh ok lah... malas update panjang-panjang. Wanna go play with my toys. Heh!

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Educate yourself

Today we're going on a little educational field trip. No need to pack you flip flops or designer glasses, this is going to be done in one blog entry.

Today, we're gonna learn just what a flashmob is.

Why is that?

Simply because so many want to make 'easy money' making flashmobs, it's not even important anymore what a real flashmob is to them. Ada yang ciplak idea sebijik execution wise, being the uncreative turds they are, and others... well... they just totally miss the mark and end up way senamrobik bersama Perdana Menteri nya konsep.

And no, I am not exaggerating because I have seen some truly horrendous ones. Malaysians jump on the bandwagon too fast, and they don't even bother analyzing something they want to attempt.

Now, Wikipedia defines flashmobs as :
A flash mob (or flashmob) is a group of people who assemble suddenly in a public place, perform an unusual act for a brief time, then disperse, often for the purposes of entertainment, satire, and artistic expression.
Flash mobs are organized via telecommunications, social media, or viral emails.
The term, coined in 2003, is generally not applied to events and performances organized for the purposes of politics (such as protests), commercial advertisement, publicity stunts that involve public relation firms, or paid professionals.
In these cases of a planned purpose for the social activity in question, the term smart mobs is often applied instead.

So there, that's why my company uses the term 'smart mobs'. Flashmobs are just the form we attempt to replicate. Still, I have no problem with people saying what I do are a flashmob. It's like zaman muzik where everything guitar based was considered 'alternative' with the term bastardized to kingdom come. Noawadays, the term 'indie' has been bastardized similarly by the uneducated and the uninformed.

Aku mengeluh ni kenapa?

Simple. Because of idiots running loose thinking they can organize flashmobs which usually are sucky and bad poco-poco attempts, people like me who are known for our mob efforts have to bear the brunt of their stupidity and failures.

People don't see the reach of it due to past failures. People fear it because it all only sounds good but rarely delivers the expected effect. People loathe it because it doesn't have the impact it's supposed to - like ordering something online because of stock images and arrives looking cheap and plasticky.

Hari aku wat flashmob Jumaat ni kat Pavilion, ada dua lagi flashmobs being conducted. Good for the competition part, as I always welcome more flashmob organization. It's a good form of advertising (smart mobs) and making it a more common practice is a good thing.

Tapi bila sumpah nak tiru sebijik-sebijik tu yang tak best dengar. Aku dok diam je bebudak ada bagitau pasal flashmob lain. Biar ler. Lantak pi la... we focus on our job dah.

Tapi dalam nak prepare for this Friday, sakit jiwa lak aku nak layan memacam masalah sebab orang yang aku deal ni ada bad experience ngan inexperienced and unknowledgeable idiots who messed up on so called flashmob organization efforts.

Pfttt!!! Hang nak niaga ke apa ke whatever lah. Tapi ko fuck up, kita semua malu gila wei nak tanggung kebodohan ko. You move on to the next big thing nak perah duit. Those of us doing it for the passion, or the art of the performance have to pick up your damn pieces wei!

Takpe lah... sabar je. Cuma sentap dan sakit hati kena layan doubts from people over flashmobs/smartmobs because of dumbs twits yang unimaginative dan keja ciplak, and even that pun fail to deliver.

Sabar je lah Timah.

Anyways, am crazy loving my team for the smooth delivery of the smart mob preparations, and am extremely excited. Berdebar pun ada. It's been over a year since my last major mob. Ni memang ujian to see if I still got it.

I think I do. We'll see.

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Self-doubt

I don't usually don't doubt myself. Doubt for me, is a waste of time.

Weigh out the pros and cons and consider the implications, and voila, ko da ada pun keputusan yang sepatutnya your make. Or at least, that's how I usually make up my mind.

I'm now however in a little bit of a doubt. Business is good... and I think that I've been taking the positive step in my career to chase my dreams.

My friends would know - ultimately, my dream is to make my own movies, have my own recording label where I can introduce real music by real talents marketed right, my own book... so many stuff that I think I'm moving in the direction for right now with what I am doing.

Biasalah. Jadi wartawan dan penulis, orang pikiaq kita ni mana lah reti nak wat tuh nih. Kita ni keja kritik... senang je kan?

Nevermind that it took years of learning and experience to achieve what I have. Nevermind kids outside the business never see what I have achieved. It's not for the name...

Just sometimes in this business it gets sickening, because ESPECIALLY in Malaysia, ideas are not as treasured as they should be.

Nevermind a shitty idea takes flight, tengok sapa yang wat, who you're connected to, who you're related to... how you got the job in the first place.

Honestly, I am more disheartened by how hard it is, day by day... never mind that I've done my time. Nevermind I deserve it. Someone else gets it cause they gave someone a blow job or something.

Oh well... hard work will always persevere. And I can't say I haven't really got credit for what I've done. Guess I'm just frustrated by the speed.. or lack thereof, of how things are taking shape. My obsessive self wants it NOW!

Just the slow pace of things sometimes makes me doubt myself, and second guess decisions I make. Oh well.. it'll pass. Stakat ni, aku tak keja full time macam dahulu pun income masuk jek.

Just... I want to go places... fast. I don't have all the time in the world.

They say live each day like it's the last. I have the reckless abandon to live it as such, it's just that I also live in the panic of it that I'll never get everything I want done in time.

Monday, January 09, 2012

Moving on

I have not really spoken in detail about this.

We all have friends right. And some of us... most of us, treasure them for who they are.

Somehow, along the way, I've lost friends. Not out of choice, you understand.

Sometimes, people fail us. Whether it's out of our mistake, or theirs. Does it matter? It just ends at some point win we least expect it and we have to move on.

I've always found it hard. Until recently in the last few years, I found it easier.

'Friends come and go, but for the few we hold on to dearly."

I try and hold on to everyone I have ever called a friend.

And then I realized, sometimes it's not wrong to move on and perhaps part ways with friends at some point.

We all grow and we all seek different goals in life that separate us occasionally from the initial bonds that bound us.

In 2011 alone, I decided to cut ties with several people near and dear to me. Including one of the best friends I ever had. And it was definitely out of choice.

I wouldn't say we had an arguments or fights for real. It was just, I had to admit that we had different priorities it life, and it got more obvious by day.

My need to succeed, to make something out of myself, appeared too ambitious for some friends who never saw the same direction as I did for the future. Does that make me wrong? No. Does it make them wrong? No too to that.

So I accept the fact now, that sometimes, we all want different things and we just have to accept things as they are and move on.

Coming into 2012, I accepted that I had to discard a few more people who have been by my side.

Had to. Not willingly.

There was no anger. No hatred. No frustration. No negative emotions of any sort.

I wish all of them the best in all their undertakings and hope and pray only for the best in life. We all need to grow, and I decided to. So maybe, one day, in time, our paths will cross, and forgiveness about this necessity will take over.

For now I just have to move on. I have more pressing goals at hand.

I've always said. My priorities in life are as such.

My family will ALWAYS be first. My dad, my mom and my sister are the most important people in my life. Nothing, nothing will ever come close.

The second is going to be my career, because I can count on nothing else but my own efforts to make sure that my folks are taken care for.

Nothing comes third or fourth or even close to the two interrelated matters.

My friends come way after that.

No one is anyone's first. We all understand that. And now... let's move on...

Sunday, January 08, 2012

Persoalan

I have one question.

For no one, actually, but myself.

Do I go back to writing? Aku dilema sebenarnya.

Like I said, I want to go back to music. Tapi entah kenapa rezeki masiih menarik aku ke sana. Bukan nak menolak, tapi rasanya masa nak move on.

I mean, not to sound boastful, but I think I've done it all when it comes to writing. Covered everything, now I wanna return to my first passion - music.

Aku belajar pon sound and audio engineering dulu, so bank gunakan serba sedikit ilmu diterima skali skala.

Besides, I believe in passion, and maybe my passion for writing isn't as strong as it used to be simply because aku rasa takde benda yang aku lom wat.

Nama je wartawan hiburan orang kenal aku. People in the business who have been around long enough will know I've always been known as the 'jack of all trades'. Zaman dulu ko hantar aku ke mana saja, aku mampu nak wat apa yang diperlukan.

I learned from the best, thanks especially to friends who were working in the wires services like AP, AFP, Reuters...

Memang kami dalam banyak aspek, kami banyak kena belajar, and I was lucky to work with so many good journalists from so many agencies untuk curi pengalaman meka throughout the years in so many fields.

The experience, skills have been invaluable and I treasure all of it.

Somehow now... I've chosen my path at the crossroads of my career, and I don't want to second guess myself. Still, can't help if this is not just some form of mid life crisis in wanting to make such a drastic change.

I've always been almost impulsive, which has never been good. But it's opened doors I never knew existed.

At most we fail, right if we fuck up?

Standing outside the fire. That's the title of Garth Brooks' song. A line of it goes, 'Life is not tried, if it's merely survived, if you're standing outside the fire'.

And maybe, not taking risks is not living. So perhaps this is the best for me.

We'll see where this takes me. I'll make up my mind six months from now. For now however, wish me all the best. Packed with projects for January and February and I probably will think about my direction in March or April - if I need to.

Oh well... life's so short you never know whether it's worth preparing that far into the future as well as it may never come.

Saturday, January 07, 2012

A mouthful

Balik tadi, perasan ada member kat Twitter... as well as one of my followers mention something with regards to cam betapa hebatnya meka dok rumah malam minggu, dan so rang agik about how bosun gila plan nak keluar tak jadi so bertapa je di rumah.

Mmm...

Those would have been sentiments I would have agreed to up to a couple of years ago, I guess.

Call me an old, jaded bastard... tapi pada umur 35 nak masuk 36 ni (walaopon perangai aku kekadang cam budak gak), I think it's no big deal if I have to stay at home. Rumah itu syurga was one of my answers.

And why not?

I love being at home.. in fact, sometimes, when I'm late to chill out with mates, it's simply because I can't bear to be away from home.

Satu, most obviously sebab aku stay with my folks. Loser, right? If you say living in with your parents makes you some sort of dork or dweeb, then think again. I CHOOSE to stay with my folks, because I've seen more than enough people regret when their folks are no longer around. Me... I just want to spend every moment of my life with them... life is short, and they, and my sister have been there for the longest time...no friends or relationships come even close to that.

Apart from that, I know it may sound silly, but everything I've earned, I've placed around me. My room - is my little sanctuary from the real world. Trust me when I say I have everything - from music to reading material to my whacky little unexplainable collectibles ranging from retro toys to more kitschy stuff.

So, maybe... for me, home is indeed where the heart is. And I now, can't for the life of me figure out kenapa orang nak meroyan kalau duduk rumah malam minggu. Nak joget cucuk langit? Pfttt! Been doing that since I was 15 kot... sampai umur aku late 20s. Been there, done that... got the t shirt... donated it.

Try staying at home once in a while. Gives you clarity. Maybe it's not for everyone... I mean, a decade ago, I would have thought of myself as the biggest loser not kalau dok rumah. So all in good time... cuma tuk aku, takyah la tunggu umur da kertu cam aku not nak appreciate those more important things in life.

So what did I do tonight?

I did this.


If you think that's like any burger - man... you're fucking missing out.

If you guys wanna try, it's Zam Burger located outside a house (niaga depan rumah je) at No.26, Jalan 6/23B, Taman Danau Kota. Kalau tau kawasan Danau Kota mana ada Uptown tu... defat da. It's after the Old Town White Coffee stretch, and a minute or two's walk from PV12. Call Zam at 012 912 4699 if you wanna know directions.

Trust me, it is freaking awesome. I had the Super King with cheese. Pergh! Seketul pom da cukup - nangis Whopper Burger King pom kalah beb.

It was supposed to be six of us, but suddenly some 14 or 15 in total gathered there. Havoc la terms. Ok... so in this case, rare as it is... it was nice to spend a Saturday night with friends, for some laughs, good food (if you think I'm over exaggerating, try the burger there first) and a drink afterwards just to gab about everything under the sun.

Still... the moment I got home... mungkin sebab da mask tahap ular sawa kekenyangan... it felt good to be home...

Friday, January 06, 2012

Retrospective


Sometimes, we start something for all the wrong reasons. But somehow, someway, it all starts working out, and you learn along the way... the real reasons to do something.

I made a drastic decision to leave my job. Oh yes, there were things I was not happy with, but what made me reexamine my life, was this nagging insistence to prove people wrong - which I have a tendency to do. Biasalah.... nama pun ada OCD.

After doing Akademi Fantasia 9, I was seriously disappointed that the system of reality TV is sometimes too cruel. Amir Jahari was dropped, and I was upset because in all my years of scouting talents like Hazami and Nikki, I could see Amir was one of those diamonds in the rough.

I swore to prove to people I was not wrong. I swore to prove that I was right. Somehow, part of the reason that strengthened my decision was because I saw Amir as those few kids who would never have a fair fighting chance to make it in the cruel music industry as he needed a fair lot of guidance.


Someone like Aizat for example was lucky because he has his family nearby and ultra supportive.

Amir was far from his family in Kuching and despite their support, he had no real access to the industry. So I took him on, out of pride to be right.


Along the way, he opened a lot of eyes and ears to his music, his voice, his talent. Including mine.

I mean, I believed in him, but the sheer effort he's put into it all in the last few months, memang aku kagum. Bukan senang bagi orang baru macam did nak than semua makian, cacian, herdikan dan emo trip searing manager yang merangka perjalanan kerjaya dia.

My unorthodox methods is not easy to deal with - ask him...

Tapi somewhere along the way, while sharing my experience and knowledge of the past 16 years or so, I learnt a lot from Amir too.

Aku tengok many fall by the wayside nak cipta nama dalam industry ini, and I am glad, coming up to eight months since I've taken him on, in less than six months, Amir has even put my doubting mind to rest, as OCD as I am.

I did all I could, using social media to market him, which is along my newly acquired expertise of the last six years or so. Hooked him up with the who's who of the business and even got him a gig with Sheila On 7 (of which my proudest moment is when Duta, Eross, Brian and Adam voiced their confidence that he was indeed talented and showed extremely a lot of promise for a 19 year old).


Yesterday we agreed in principle to Kasi Gegar's terms and that we would sign with the Amdans' family outfit for two years after our initial deal for just a single expired. This despite having several labels interested in Amir. I agreed on behalf of my company J Play, because I believe in family values and real belief in talent, and I see that in Kasi Gegar.

After the meeting, earlier tonight I talked to members of Malaysia's Twitter community (Twitterjaya) and told them my decision to use them for the production of Amir's music video for his debut single Tanpamu.

Satu sebab mereka da buktikan dengan dua parody videos (first dap at almost 400,000 views, and the second da dekat 500,000 views in just a week). Second sebab they're now my family. And thirdly because it all made sense for Amir to work together with the people who believed in him in the first place. Like Kasi Gegar, I have much to thank Twitterjaya for Amir's success as we only had social media to promote his material, namely Twitter.

In between that time of agreeing to terms with Kasi Gegar and talking to Twitterjaya, I reexamined the reasons why I'm still taking care of Amir, putting on hold my own career which I had planned more for.

It's no longer about proving I'm right, or someone is wrong. It's now about belief. Believing in what's meant to be, not what you WANT it to be. In so many ways, my life is now dictated by that. I no longer worry about the small things I used to, I'm more forgiving and less judgmental of people - and I'm learning to count everything in my life as a blessing.

Yes, you never stop learning. Even someone like me...

Thursday, January 05, 2012

Simplifying

What's my mantra for 2012?

Simplifying.

Don't over clutter your life with all the bullshit. No drama, no unnecessary bullshit. Set goals, and works towards them.

Mine?

Simple.

First, as always is my family. I work for them. I strive for them. I want to give them a great life. We have a few shitty short years here, make the most of it.

Second, my career - or more appropriately, my passion. I quit journalism for a reason. It's my second passion after music, but I have spent 16 years on it. Now it's time to rededicate myself to what I love most. And yet, still try to make more money than I could ever dream of than in this path I took.

Thirdly - declutter. So often we have so many 'attachments' in friends, and material possessions that we get our priorities mixed up. This includes our personal life. Everyone wants to be in love, and whoever tells you that you need someone to make you happy - really doesn't know what to do with their lives.

I have promised myself ages ago, never to be a hamster on a wheel, working 9 to 5 and going through a routine until I die.

For 2012, I set no resolutions. I just set goals.

That's why on New Year's Eve while everyone was partying, I was decluttering. Spring cleaning if you must. I threw out everything that did not fit into my life.


My material possesions (apart from my car and my gadgets) most prized, is my music collection (lost count after 5,000 CDs - most bought out of my own money since I was a student).


Then there's also the small indulgence with all things Gucci.

And that's it. Those are my little 'pampering' items to get me through the moments when the days get a little tough.

Oh wait a minute...


There's also my collection of 80s toys (M.A.S.K. for the win!).

Apart from that, I have chosen not to be tied down. I could literally pack up and move (not that I want to). The less we have, the less we tend to have a feeling of emotional attachment to, and the more focused we are.

I hope this little experiment works.

My life is simplified. I try now to just focus on projects under my company and God willing, my upcoming permanent employment which is a dream! (which will remain secret until confirmed).

Spent the whole of today running around meetings from 9 in the morning, and am writing this at this hour half asleep.

It's not easy... it's tiring.

Someone asked me, how I can juggle three to four ongoing jobs at once.

Easy - think of what you want, and work for it. What's the saying... 'get rich or die trying'.

Ok... I don't wanna die trying... but I guess the phrase goes more to highlight the extent of your effort, and that's what I have to focus on now.

The next two weeks are crucial - and already I'm in full swing as of yesterday to get going on all the work I built a foundation for since the end of last year.

The results? I'll let you in on a clearer picture of what's shaping up soon, my dear blog (and readers, if I still have any).

Wednesday, January 04, 2012

Retis

Someone asked me today.

"Macamana jadi retis?"

I so hate that fucking word. Retis. Slang for 'artis'.

In Malaysia, every fucking Thong. Dev and Harith can be a 'star'. Oh wait a minute, that happens everywhere. Only difference is, only here, orang sebut, "Eh... artislah" just because you had two seconds on a TV screen, or sunk into a swimming pool for a photoshoot for some soft porn mainstream publication.

Terus jadi 'retis'.

Go fuck yourselves people.

I have stopped referring to people in the performing arts industry as 'artis' a long time ago.

Don't get me wrong. I give them more respect by calling them 'anak seni'.

Artis is now freely used for any idiot now yang grab a few inches in a gossip column, even if he or she is an absolutely fucking nobody.

Such disrespect to real artistes who display real talent in so many other facets of the creative arts circles...

The whole cult of celebrity happens everywhere. But only in recent years, it has been become extremely disturbing.

When people in the general public started knowing me from blogging, I was uncomfortable with the spotlight, simply because the 'reties' word popped up.

Excuse me? I'm not a singer, actor (have done acting, but that does NOT make me an actor), or any screen celebrity that has something to show for. I may be a personality in some circles as I am known for my loud opinions, but that does NOT make me a star.

Unfortunately, SOME bloggers/Youtubers/Twitterers now seem intoxicated by the whole cult of celebrity that they see it as a way to achieve their 'fame' to immediately elevate themselves on par with the glitterati they want to be like.

I absolutely detest and abhor that - especially when some of these morons have about as much talent as a four year old juggling five flaming chainsaws.

Don't get me wrong, sometimes you become a celebrity of sorts deservingly enough from some point of view, but let's review again - what substantial yield do you have nak digolongkan dengan orang yang menghasilkan semi serener?

Ugh... retis... artis...pantat opah ko berulat la.

Everytime ada 'kawan' lama (some person I've known in the earlier stages of my life but never acknowledged my existence before) serempak aku and recognize me from some TV show ke haper, and say, "Eh, ko artis ek skang" sumpah aku geli geliman.

NEVER - EVER - call anyone by that, please. Unless they really have a body of work that really exists to be acknowledged.

Er... tu je aku nak meroyan hari ni.

Seriously, though, kids today have to realize being recognized doesn't make you popular, and even being recognized and popular does not pay the bills.

If I have to deal with being recognized, I will - but I want to pay the fucking bills first. And no, I will never - ever - look kindly to be called anything along those derogatory terms.

Tuesday, January 03, 2012

Looking back

Had a long talk with some friends yesterday.

2011 has been a strange year, but it's laid the foundation for my new year.

Bab personal, 2010 was the year of getting burned by people I trusted. 2011 was about building a support network of people I trusted who similarly needed the emotional support to pull through the same shit I was going through, biar personal or professional.

Then as 2011 drew to a close, I was forced to make many hard decisions.

My friends had different priorities, as did I.

So like it or not, it was about moving on.

Friends come and go, but for the few who truly stay dear to you. Aku masih sayangkan kawan-kawan aku... cuba memang I have cut ties with quite a few of them willingly because I see us all going a different path. But lain dari 2010, it wasn't because they were assholes. In 2011 it was about the maturity of growth and how I see all our plans not going in tandem with that of others'.

So it's cool...

I am blessed to have new friends in my life, those who perhaps understand me more.

One thing for sure is, I have learnt the biggest lesson in 2011 - to learn to let go.

Of frustrations, anger, disappointments. Every day is a new day, and holding on to the past never helps.

I compartmentalize all that negativity into a little package in the back of my mind, to serve only as a reminder of their existence once, to beware of things going a certain way so that it will never happen again.

I never open it.

Throughout the past year, I have felt bitterness and anger from those demons from my past, and I am now able to smile.

Now out of vengeance at their pain for not learning from the episodes that happened, but out of joy that I have finally embraced change and am ready to take on the future.

I can't say I've truly let go of the past and can smile to those who have hurt me, tapi cukup aku katakan aku tidak lagi berdendam kepada sesiapa. Leave and let live.

Each of us will go through many things in life. Whatever little shit comes my way, always brings more than enough blessings to make up for it.

So for my new life, I thank those who have been part of it before, good or bad, you have shaped me to be what I am today. And whether you think well of me or not, it definitely matters not as it's more important what I think of myself.

I have no doubts in my mind that things will fall into place.

Just for nostalgia's sake, I wish my old life would once a while say hi to me.

Sorry lah entry aku ni bercelaru sikit. Satu memang nak masuk mode blogging balik sebab da karat.

Keduanya sebab on medication ngan batuk bagai. Cait... nak start keja masuk tahun baru ni baru nak menjadi segala.

I will make more sense as we proceed, but thank you all my anonymous friends who now read this blog now that the hype of it all has died down.

Have a good night wherever you are, and here's to a new day tomorrow.

Monday, January 02, 2012

Tweeting is addictive



Not many people realize this. Tweeting is addictive. Even blogging kalah bab tweeting ni.

I used to like focus on blogging. Aku diam-diam began blogging in 2003. You won't find those entries anywhere. Why? Because I deleted them.

It was really like my personal diary back then, where all my most intimate secrets were published under a pseudonym that no one could ever trace back to me. Sometime in 2004, I took on the name 'klubbkidd' as a tribute to my clubbing days, and to the generation of club kids that emerged in the early 90s.

I still blogged for personal, but somehow along the way people discovered my blog and started reading it. From 3 to 30 to 300 to 3000 a day... that was a lot back then about seven years ago.

Skang kata 30,000 ke 300,000 a day pon da tak heran kalao blog besau-besau. Aku nak cakap apa... zaman aku penah 12,000 pon da cam wow gila babiks.

But those numbers were big then, and it drew a lot of attention to my name.

I didn't know what to do with it. The whole branding.

Then Twitter came along. In 2009, I finally caved in (a little late) and registered in May. Never tweeted much, because I still tried to focus on blogging. By 2010, I went crazy, and started tweeting like nobody's business.

It was faster, got the point across, and it was realtime, which was a lot more important.

And then 2011 saw me membiarkan blog aku dalam alam barzakh sebab malas tahap gaban, plus sibuk. Tweeting was my way out to just have my say, whether or not people were listening.

And so far, more than 32,000 people are listening.

Point of this entry?

So many things have changed, and I realize that my chance take on social media, has emerged into something amazing. It almost grew out of control into a monster at some point, but now I've reined in the crazy and brought it under control.

I laugh when I watch kids today bask in the 'glamour' of the spotlight of social media without understanding how to use it to their benefit.

The only way they know how is freeloading and showing off people know them, or try to make small time money by peddling shit through advertorials.

Total sell outs.

Me? I still retain the point of view I've had through the years. I'm cynical, sarcastic but not without a heart, and I'll continue being me.

Twitter however has much tested my friendship with many people.

Ye la... followers 32,000 tapi aku follow dalam 88 orang je. Why? Sebab semak gila timeline, especially nak jaga hati orang, follow gak, tapi haprak je tweets sungguh membosankan.

Ada yang marah bila unfollow bagai... nak wat camna. Hakikatnya you bore me.

Kawan-kawan nak simpan business card pon tak guna kan, kalao tak pakai?

Pfttt! I have a grand design in mind for my future, and honestly social media is big and growing, and I want to be part of the explosion.

People should just cast away that mentality of blog advertising or tweet advertising old school style. No one is gonna believe something's great if you get paid to say so.

Branding has to be honest and in line with your real leanings.

Blogging honestly, for me - has become irrelevant in so many ways. It's like the dot com bubble in the late 90s that just went bust and splattered all over. Now, honestly, I maintain this blog out of pure nostalgia and merely for the sake of documentation of my life.

That's all I wanted to say for today... banyak keja nap siapkan sebenarnya... I have a lot of thoughts in my head, tapi nanti lah. Aku blog slang serious 100% tank spell check ke usha grammar ke... main cirit terus to words.

I'm keeping it honest now.

Sunday, January 01, 2012

It's 2012!


Yes, happy new year 2012 all! I wish everyone the best in all they do, and may this new year become bigger and better for all of us - before the Mayans are proven right and the world goes to shit.... oh wait a minute.. we don't need them for that - we do that pretty well on our own.

Anyway, azam tahun baru aku... well actually I have no resolutions because I think they're pathetic ways to reassure ourselves we will do better without any actual effort to go with that confidence. But one thing I have decided to do, date notwithstanding - is to continue blogging again.

In 2011, my blogging was sporadic at best. As and when. My excuse is that it was a busy year and that there were tons for me to do sampai tidur pon tak cukup masa sampai blood pressure setinggi KLCC.



And here's where things will be a little different in 2012. I will have the time because I'm managing it better now.

I was... and still am juggling several jobs at once. Beginning today, effectively, I have resigned from The Malay Mail. As a senior local entertainment journalist, first of all, I feel pay is crap in this business here... I see people making money left, right, center... and unfortunately I'm not one of them.

Used to be passionate, now I'm just indifferent because of so many things I can't change within that position.

Malaysian music for one is so wrought with politics that it's not funny. Most music lovers don't see it, because it's thinly veiled... but enough to mask intentions.

Try making it as a band or an solo new act, and you'll see it all for yourself.

So anyways, I've had my own company for a while now, and that's where I see potential in growth, and God willing 2012 is promising a lot coming my way. So career wise, more focused on making the RMs...

In negotiations for a new full time job - but I'm taking my time...I have projects lined up to March, so no rush there as my income is confirmed for now until June at least by how I planned it.

Eh lari topik lak... but point is, I will manage time better to return to blogging.

But why?

Well. The name 'klubbkidd' now, orang kenal mostly because of Twitter as I have shifted there to be more active. klubbkiddkl at least (tak dapat nama klubbkidd cause some asshole da got it suspended)

I've moved on from blogging, and I could care less, because in the last few years, every Thong, Dev and Harith has decided that blogging is instant stardom and money money money, so they start throwing trash left right center. Everything's over-monetized... I mean there are some blogs where there's NOTHING but advertorials.

That's why I moved on to develop my branding on Twitter.

Also, one main thing in my mind was, since I was more active on Twitter because of the ease of access, what the fuck am I going to blog about?

This stumped me for several weeks since I thought of blogging again.

I came to the conclusion that while I can be random on Twitter, my blog does offer one thing that is harder to do on micro blogging.

Expressing my most inner thoughts and emotions.

When I started blogging years ago, I had this thing going on - write without planning, just keep typing what comes to mind without thinking of grammar or spelling or editing it all at the end of the entry.

And then slowly because my blog started getting hits, and people started telling me they wanted it like this or like that, I started tailoring it to the needs or wants of other people.

Tak best la da camtu. After all, a blog is self-indulgence. It's all about me, me and more me kan?

People who bitch about that, but have their own blogs to rant about others really contradicts themselves.

So, I finally came to the conclusion that I would continue blogging - as myself, as true to a journal I can be to document the important events and thoughts in my life. Nothing more, nothing less.

And with that it might not be skewed towards what you would expect as before when it was all glitzy for people to come in because of photos and shit. I mean, it will still have all that, but not as marketed as before.

I just want to really take time to explain thoughts in my head...

And if you guys continue to be with me, then I thank you. Coming up to eight years of blogging now, and I think this is the most significant change for my when it comes to blogging.

So thank you folks, party on, it's 2012, I will blog soon. Tomorrow actually, as I have decided to somehow... some way, blog every day as I promised and carried out a couple of years ago.

A round of hugs to everyone, I love you... and thank you for taking the time to be part of my life and allowing me to be part of yours.

Now - party on!