Some two weeks ago Minister in the Prime Minister's Department Datuk Seri Idris Jala said subsidies must be rationalized or Malaysia will go bankrupt by 2019 if it continues to accumulate debt at the current rate of 12 per cent a year.
He said at RM362 billion it was indeed possible for such a scenario, and recommendations were put forward to increase prices of subsidised items such as fuel, gas, food and toll.
Idris, the chief executive officer of the Performance Management and Delivery Unit in the PM's Departmen said, the subsidy bill was not sustainable, especially in light of the rising budget deficit and government debt (as a percentage of GDP), higher than Indonesia at 28 per cent and getting closer to the Philippines at 62 per cent.
And so on. And so forth.
Deputy Finance Minister Dr Awang Adek Hussein denied however and said that Malaysia will NOT go bankrupt in 2019 even if a subsidy totalling RM74bil a year is continued.
And guess what?
While you might (choice of word to soften the blow) end up paying a lot more for everything (and tightening our belts beyond belief) - just to save the country from 'going bankrupt', here's what's going on.
The Istana Negara, a symbol of our country's monarchy - will now cost double the RM400 million estimated.
So that's RM800 million (kalao ada yang tak reti darab dua).
Read HERE, HERE and HERE to read up about the fabulous structure that is being constructed that will look like below when completed.
If that's not enough... an extremely smart person suggested we needed to move our iconic Parliament - to Putrajaya. At the cost of RM800 million.
Click HERE to read more on it, an analysis HERE and some very smart reasons HERE.
Yes, let's do our part for our country and pay more for everything to avoid our country for going bankrupt! Essentials naik harga, so what?
We have two very extremely fabulous structures, right at the end of the day. Awesome!
Alamak! Title entry da macam tajuk for cartoon Real Monsters dah.
Tension yang amat ya!
Apparently, bloody Apple stores around Los Angeles where my friend is at, kehabisan stok iPad wifi+3G! Sampai sehinanya rasanya 16GB (asalnya nak 64GB), pun jadik... tu pun takde. Matilah!
I don't know if betul ke popular sangat ke.. atau they're creating artificial shortage to hype up the product since Apple is shipping it to more countries by July (which will include Singapore).
Ni yang tension ni. Aku tau sini pun da jual - but seriously harga macam kesial wei! I mean honestly, something that could retail for below RM3000 is selling dekat RM5000 sial! Matilah camnih!
Alternatively, I may just get the wifi version and save a few bucks. Or... mintak mintak a miracle happens and my friend manages to get her hands on one anyway despite the shortage. Merasalah confirm dia tweet kehabisan stock (pas anonymous in commented in the post about my intention to get one). Matilah nak waiting list katanya. Ko hado nak waiting list?
We'll see how it goes. But this is making me want the iPad more... must resist...
Seperti sudah diberitahu... senarai lagu tugasan yang diberikan adalah hanya gimik. Apa tujuan gimik tersebut except for wasting time, I have no idea.
But memang at least dari semalam nampak ler reaksi students semalam camna when caught off guard.
Salima la paling kecoh dan gedik sekali... but didn't expect much from her. Apapun, ni senarai lagu sebenar.
Aku sebenarnya tak setuju ngan lagu untuk Farhan dan Faizal kerana itu kekuatan meka dan patutnya meka ditonjolkan lagi kebolehan mereka dengan lagu lebh mencabar. Seperti juga Lotter.
Haziq lak dapat lagu membantu because it's right up his alley ngan gaya stereotype dia manakala si Rich punya tugasan Mustika seolah untuk membantu dia keran hampir pasti dia akan terkeluar minggu ini because of the pathetic performances he's given over the past two weeks.
Padan muka Salima dapat lagu gedik lagi... untuk menampakkan kegedikan semulajadi dia.
After all... that seems her ony talent. She can't sing for nuts...and she's not even good looking... so godik a ek So-lame-lah...you'll always be Suck-lima to us...
Zila won't be challenged much, but while Teman Tapi Mesra kira agu yang senang, it will show kemampuan Velvet untuk have fun and nt just be a powerful singer.
Diddy dapat what I think is the best song of the week, so here's hopiing he will use of this opportunity.
Laporan Diari akan dipost malam ni.
Rich - Mustika (M.Nasir) Lotter - Iris (Awie) Haziq - Cinta Nusantara (Sheqal) Amirul - Yesterday (The Beatles) Salima - Obsesi (Juliana Banos) Farhan - Still Got The Blues (Gary Moore) Diddy - Memori Luka (Headwind) Faizal - Blues Terengganu Kita (Iklim) Velvet - Teman Tapi Mesra (Ratu) Zila - Tak Tercapai Akalmu (Elyana)
Remember all the cases sebelom ni masuk suratkhabar pasal people 'wearing' our flags inappropriately?
Well. Semalam gi Uptown kat Danau Kota. Ada la gerai jual benda alah kecik kecik. You know those ugly, horrendous (some think of it as cute) things that you stick on your Crocs?
Well, they were selling the fake in some random factory somewhere punya types, and siap ada World Cup section where they sold these little sticky thingies with flags of the World Cup countries. No problem for me...
Until I saw these...
These Jibbitz or whatever they call 'em shoe charms offensively enough for me (apart from the fact they looked like they were manufactured from cheap rubber) - had Malaysian flags for sale.
Erm.. honestly. Putting our flag on your feet is patriotic? I mean, you're not talking about colours of the national flag here. You're talking about the image of our flag.
Hish... memang cam haram.
If this is supposed to be national pride, we're wearing it on the wrong foot. Let me betulkan sikit - we're just wearing it wrong.
Nih si Ning wat pe nih...adakah sesi MLM? Seminar dimana dia jadik motivational speaker? Sesuatuh!
Seb baik stakat jersey dan capri pants-esque tracks je. Cuba kalao pakai tracksuit penuh matching colour. Da cam Sue Sylvester from Glee da. Matilah aku!
Motif wat show lak? Pakai camni?
Heh.. sebenarnya media night for Suria FM dan Red FM. Tema football fever or something like that.
Aku sampai pon lambat sebab malas bersosial - tapi in the end men-GRO kan diri gak cause it was so much fun being around everyone.
Had a fun night, but not too eventful to update. Or at least, nothing I should say in public (matilah stalkers noya terus terbayang apa yang berlaku atau dikatakan).
Ok.. lazy mode is on.
PS - Malam Jumaat malas update. Sibuk aktiviti sepatutnya. Yeay!
Yes, as much as I hate iPhones - and iPods and the only thing I love from Apples are Macs (which is weird cause satu keluarga - and I have a MacBook which I'm planning to upgrade to a Pro soon) - I have made up my mind to get... an iPad.
I mean, I know the cool and fun factor is there.. but entahlah.
Was on the fence about it. But thought about it - A LOT!
So anyway someone I know is heading to New York this weekend. And I casually asked them to pick up an iPad for me. She said yes. Hah... tu yang semalam control tanak beli barang kat Gucci tuh.
So if everything goes according to plan - next week, I'll be sporting an iPad, bitches!
Yeay!
Definitely plan to get the 3g version (setakat wifi bosan lak idup). I have a day or two to make up my mind what exactly I want but a 64GB sounds fantastic kan? Matilah that's at least USD$829 dah RM2744! Matilah ko!
Tapi geram... the cheapest version which is 16GB (for wifi and 3G is USD$629 (RM2082). Unless I can get somewhere with slightly lower prices.
Takpe.. sabar pikirkan secara rasional dan tenang.
Was working all the day tapping away in front of the laptop, stopped jap gi grocery shopping (again). Picked up some essentials I left out (and stocked on sugar) sebab tanak susahkan orang tua aku ulang alik nak carik gula kalao-kalao nanti June 15 the whole shit hits the fan with retailers merajuk tanak jual.
And picked up something I wanted for my collection.
Tuh dia. Absolut Vodka - Rock Edition katanya. It comes in a leather cover which zips up around the bottle perfectly.
Ok... so I've given up drinking actually. But I like it! Leather and studs. Ooh!
Enough crap... done with work. Chilling with some friends for supper. Be posting more tomorrow.
Another day of work. And then decided to catch up with old friends in Pavilion. Tanak sebut nama, kalao tak kang kecoh kalao orang tau da baik balik. Heh... takpe la... kita manusia reti maaf memaafkan. Betul tak? Kecuali spesis binatang ni - kita abaikan jerk because there is hardly any reason nak layan pun kan?
Friends are friends. We fight, we make up. Unless you've been stabbed with the knife still hanging from your back - masa tu, all you can say is whatever, and throw the knife back. Orang camtuh tak idop lama pon. Merempat je.
To my former BFF, things have changed, and it's ok. We respect what we have to - and we learn from the past. Tuh je.
Anyhoo, kita bertiga, dan sekali dua orang lembaga yang menakutkan yang ditugaskan menjaga (motif ad bodyguard - suspen aku walaopon rasa feeling jap), gi la window shopping pas having a drink and some nom noms.
Aku, atas hasutan kengkawan - masuk la store Gucci nak usha ada tak laptop bag (ye la sejak member hasut arituh kata ada sale, nak gak usha apa ada yang menarik).
Spotted my sneakers - seb baik aku pakai loafers sepasang lagik yang classic - kalao tak very the nampak same in store.
I was reaching out for a bag nak usha when the sales assistant, this Chinese guy, almost blurted out - "EXCUSE ME, SIRRRRR!!!!!"
Aku pun terlepas. Damn! Terkejut aku. Ni mesti kes ingat aku tak mampu.
"Yes?"
"Er... that one is pig skin."
Lor... "owh... it's ok. I'm not Muslim."
The guy gave me this blur sheepish look. Heh... amik ko. Do I look Malay? Aku tau la kawan anak dara dua ekor ngan aku tuh dara very the wanita Melayu terakhir classic gituh, but we were speaking in English... I don't know. Takpe la.. kira meka ni sedar gak dan peka - walaopon tak letak sign tulis pig skin (besides I've touched enough oinkers to know the difference).
Didn't bother to get anything cause nothing struck my fancy.
And no regrets sebab I think I'm going to be spending some money soon on something I really want. Well, not really want.. but sort of curious to get. Matilah curious nak bazir duit.
Nanti je lah cakap apa.
Anyway, hung out a bit more, met a couple of friends again and then met more friends kat Subang before calling it a night. Nothing much.. conserving energy for the weekend. have something planned. Tak sabar...
Mana taknya... lepak je keja. Dah la musim ujan je kalao belah malam. Kalao tak mengular, rasa cam nak melekat je dalam bilik layan video bagai.
Smalam however lari ke sana sini. Busy Monday katanya.
First order of the day - nak interview Marion. Da lama pon tak catch up ngan dia sebab biasala she's been so busy with E News Asia and all.
Had a good interview and all. What with wedding plans... oops! Tunggu la aku link story bila kuar. Tak berani nak cakap pe-pe. Tapi kalao betol dia tamatkan zaman bujang, tahniah la kan.
After was done, got some work done in Damansara. Syukur seribu kali syukur, masih ada rezeki bergolek masuk. I guess hard work does pay off - when people do see what you're able to do.
Done, picked up Anne, pastu lepak umah Stacy jap kat Kinrara. Tak penah agik mai umah dia nih sejak dia pindah dari Jalan Klang Lama.
Tuh dia.. kekurangan AIM jerk katanya.
Anyway, we all decided to chill at Rasta. Si Akim pon join. Last-last ramai la gak - termasuk yang tak perlu. Heh.. sabar jer.
Yang penting - ni anak Anne. Anne dari Warner Music - bukan Farina (nama manja Farina pon Anne gak). Anyway comel tak si Danial ni.
Tuh dia.. nak amik pic tak bagi ok! Dia ni jenis quiet tak amik pot. Quite unusual for a 10 year-old yang usually very the perangai Happy Tree Friends.
Had a good night out. Tired by the end of it - but massive fun!
First of all, I just want to say welcome home for our 12 Malaysians who were on board the Gaza-bound humanitarian aid flotilla, Mavi Marmara.
Syukur seribu syukur... praise God for their safe return.
Watching them walk through the halls of the airport was a happy moment.
Cuma sayang lah... saat kegembiraan mereka I felt, was marred. Some 300 people welcomed them home. Too bad nampak cam ramai tak perlu. Personal opinion jek.
For me, cukup la heads of state led by Tan Sri Muhyiddin Yassin - our deputy Prime Minister, family and close friends as well as media.
We want to welcome them home, not put on a circus.
Sibuk lak ramai, sampai aku tengok tukang pakai vest Security pon tak dok jaga, snappy pics lak.
Apapon, congratulations to Astro Awani for a job well done for the live coverage. It's a good start to a beautiful Sunday morning.
Also to add, while I'm happy for our Malaysian to return safe, tapi aku harap sangat people don't laungkan the word hero.
The real heroes are those (macam blogger ni pon ada tweet) - are those who prayed for them, those who secured their release and for me too, those who are still fighting injustice, not just there, but everywhere around the world.
Let's not lose perspective of things here. No one won a war. We can be thankful, but jangan nak over celebrate.
Apapon... great to have you guys back.
Off track sikit.
Of course most of you know I am one of the featured bloggers of Project Alpha season two which is a reality Internet show by Nuffnang. Mine was recorded masa pergi ke Sarawak for the audition of Akademi Fantasia 8 there.
It was a pain in the butt to have cameras following me everywhere - but kinda fun I suppose. Makes me want to have a reality show of my own where everyone can see me bitch about the world. What you seee is very U rating. I want something 18SX! Heh!
AF8 has come and gone, but it's like a trip back in time, kan?
See if you can spot Farina in the video (part five).
Selama Akademi Fantasia, aku tak cakap pon sapa yang aku kenal kan yang aku penah katakan? Well it was Farina. Masa tengok dia lepas stage four aku happy banget!!!! Daus pon kenal aku masa jumpa aku kat audition cause dia pon ujibakat on the same day. See if you can spot him in the video too.
Anyway korang layan je la ek. Me got fun Sunday planned. Yeay! For now lapar... so nak carik makan jap. Just watch the damn video already! Everything's in a playlist, so click play and enjoy.
Forgiveness does not come easy. Anyone who says it does - never had to do any.
So smalam aku dapat SMS. Takyah la cakap isi kandung SMS tu, tapi pihak satu agik nak mintak maap.
Bukan aku tak terima. Tapi jangan harap kata-kata dapat melesapkan segala penipuan. Every action has an equal and opposite reaction and so on.
Merayu simpati nak SMS rantai ni, aku tak terima. Kerja pengecut yang ditangkap penipuan dan keja hina jek.
Words are only words without action.
Takpe. Aku tak kuasa pikirkan. Saat muncul kang apa patut dilakukan, tau lah. Sementara tu, I think my friends are doing fine. Oh yes, everyone knows. Ko berdepan not with my anger, for I have gone past that. You deal with everyone else's reaction knowing you are nothing but a lowly snake.
Period.
Matilah tetap ada kena mengena kes noya kan?
Tapi serious - berani buat, berani tanggung. Segala penyesalan dan sebagainya tidak membawa makna when it's just words coming out of your mouth (or mass SMS from your phone).
You said you're ready to face the consequences - so be it. It's a little too late to even imagine an SMS like that can change anything. Selama ni melacur cam gampang tak pikir lak, kan? Penah kena warning kakak Amy pun masih nak wat kan?
Moving on!!!!
Motif gambar? Er... ikut member gi pasar tadik pas kita reramai lepak sampai dekat 6 pagik. Heh. Lucah sungguh!
Dia nak extravaganza masak malam ni. Aku nak singgah merasa hasilnya. Tapi sebelom tu taking my folks to a seafood dinner tonight. Lama tak bak orang tua aku jalan-jalan cari makan.
Eh cup! Ni gambar stok arituh caught kat highway pas Sungai Besi nak lalu Desa Petaling. banjir kilat! Mana taknya, kilang perabot yang terbakar baru-baru nih - air mencurah turun cam air terjun siot! Horror! Within minutes air naik gila babiks!
Dan sekian entry ini. Matilah! Sorry lah guys. Not very productive couple of days. Just unwinding and chilling with the friends who I haven't had the time to lepak with for the longest time.
A lot of catching up. And a lot of forgiving. Some friends yang selama ni krisis da ok semula pas kita berbincang masaalah-masaalah yang menyebabkan sampai putus kawan sebelom ni (tapi takde la sampai tahap celah bedah bagai). So happy I have some members of my family returning. Yeay! BFFs forever!
Dah... dah... sakit jari taip. baru nak tidur. Leh?
Sekian...
PS - I have gotten quite a few DMs on Twitter, messages on YM, BBM etc from those of you who say you've gone through what I have. For those of you still feeling the hurt, look for that inner man/woman inside you to fight it and come out better. You'll find him/her tucked in etween your left armpit. Matilah! Honestly though - be strong guys! Love you people!
I know I said aku tanak cita pasal any of the drama I've been through over the past week plus, but this is something slightly connected.
Of course, you guys know I basically shut down for three days over the end of last week. I promise, never ever to do that again. Not over stupid problems like what I went through. No more hitting the brakes of my life. Yes, I am human and I crack under pressure too. But learning from events past, I am only stronger.
I still don't believe I bothered that much about everything. So pointless and a waste of my time. Heh... we all make mistakes, kan? We're only human.
But thank you people for being there for me, I love all of you. Thank you to my sisters (so many of you who called and messaged me to find out what was going on sampai letih dowh aku nak jawab soal siasat tapi a special holler to Atilia and Ning for always being my big sisters apart from everyone in my 'family') and my brothers (especially Datuk Seri Farid Redzuan - nampak garang, but he's seriously sweet and someone I feel connected to with our ties to arwah Min).
Everyone - you know who you are. A million hugs.
All the comments, and all the concern... thank you so much everyone.
I believe in the power of prayers. Syukur. I believe a resolve came from it.
I promise myself and everyone I love and who loves me (tanpa agenda, niat atau kepentingan - being sincere may be stupid to some, but to pada stok yang kekurangan kasih sayang jerk) to continue being myself and appreciate what's truly important.
Things can only get better, right?
The losers who try to fuck me up... pe pe je lah. I sincerely wish you a good life.
Owh.. and I have to mention my friend Amir. Dia ni gila sikit... molot lak cam sial - kalah mulot akak-akak (tapi yang ni memang jantan tulen - bukan feeling cover je tulen padahal konsep sejenis tak ngaku - yang mulot laser).
Thanks for all your concern mate. You like family dah ok!
He even did a beautiful entry. You MUST read this if you have been following my drama, and went through, or am going through what I went through. CLICK HERE to read Amir's beautiful entry yang ending macam sial wat aku gelak walaopon aku rasa teary eyed membaca everything else.
So thank you again everyone. I'm back. In so many ways.
Everything that has happened made me reflect so much on so many things.
And I am glad to say.. I am happier now than I've been for ages.
Eh cup. Sebab noya aku peaked on Sunday, aku memang tak share pics masa gi Faizal Tahir nya Adrenalin showcase kat Hard Rock Cafe Kuala Lumpur kan?
Hah... ni album Adrenalin on sale kat pintu masuk. Have you guys gotten your copy yet? Hey, it didn't win Album of the Year at AIM for nothing ok. It is an amazing album! Seriously!
Baju khas wat show Hard Rock Kuala Lumpur pon ada.
Belah belakang siap print out songlist of tunes to be performed tuh. Puas dok belakang mamat sekor yang pakai baju nih, tau jek aku lagu apa yang akan diperform. I like!
I was joined by member skolah rendah aku si Helmy and bini dia sekali. Jarang meka nak ke benda alah konsert dan sebagainya. Tapi demi nak tengok Faizal live, sanggup sampai amik babysitter.
Sorry la ta dapek jumpa Pejal. In fact ramai gak fans aku tau sedih tak dapat jumpa their fave act. Mana taknya, letih dowh mamat tuh. Rehearsal bagai, and packed schedule. Pastu sebelom show Hard Rock Cafe lak, dia kena perform kat Gah 1 yang nan hado, before rushing to make this engagement.
Ish ish ish... and he did sound very tired. Tapi Faizal rocked it anyway and it was a good show (tapi honestly, show Hard Rock Cafe Penang meletup agik).
Sebab ramai fans tak dapat jumpa Faizal pas abih show, korang nak tau sapa kerumun pas abih show?
Tuh dia!!! Audi Mok jadik mangsa seterusnya. Famous dowh Audi. Bukan famous sebarangan. Faizal siap paksa dia naik pentas. Heh! Malu gila. I mean, we all know Audi ni stok pemalu overdose. And his endearing weirdness memang wat orang gelak je.
Ni satu agik snap for fans masa tu. Altimet kena tarik ngan Audi tuk join skali.
And that's it. Kalao korang nak pics Faizal lebih, check my previous entries for the batch of photos and stuff from Penang punya show.
Hah... so ni entry penutup noya, and also entry terima kasih merangkap entry nak letak pic tertunda gituh.
I will be returning to normal and so from here on - no more bullshit about how losers affect me. Roll on karma! Yeay!
PS - Night out with some other friends tonight. Jalan-jalan!
So I've taken stock of my life, bebetul tengok apa yang kekurangan dalam hidup aku, and guess what. I have so much to be thankful for.
No regrets.
True, that every bad experience teaches me to beware, which is actually a bad taste in my mouth.
But all in all, it teaches me. Life teaches us something if we allow it too. It's a neverending process of learning - and the day you stop learning is the day you die.
So I walk away from the bullshit that I went through with my head held high.
At the end of the day, I am proud of who I am.
I am 34, with a professional career, lucky to be doing what I love for a living, and pada masa yang sama, doing a lot more other things all at once which allows me to indulge in the creative process through a company I co-owned with one of my best friends.
I can support my loving parents, both of whom I cherish, and a doting sister who is the best anyone could have asked for.
I have my extended family in my 'sisters' who are there for me when times get tough (even though those bitches give me drama at times - matilah aku... we all still love each other at the end of the day) and many other friends who are supportive.
Memang aku tidak sempurna. Hidup aku belum sempurna. But what I did, what I have - was all through my own blood, sweat and tears. Syukur pada Tuhan kerana memberikan aku segalanya, walaupun ada saat yang aku terasa lemah dan tidak mampu meneruskan hidup.
For those of my friends who read this blog (yang tak perlu tu tak payah la... buang bandwidth korang je, pastu nak bitter when I write the truth) - thank you too for being there.
Let me introduce you to the real me.
My name is Joe. I am an entertainment journalist, who also runs a company which I co-own with my friend and business partner. I am single by - most of the time by choice, sometimes by sheer stupidity of believing I'm not good enough.
I am caring, passionate, and love music more than you can imagine. Aku jenis mesra, tapi susah nak rapat, kerana aku pilih mereka yang aku mampu percaya.
My negatives are I can see things that go bump in the night, have anger management issues which I've been able to deal with (usually controlling that rage has a physical effect on me and I tremble uncontrollably) and I wear my heart on my sleeve. I say the truth too often which hurts people.
I also have obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD) and a minor case of claustrophobia.
I am proud of my strengths - and even more prouder of being able to recognize my flaws.
I am not perfect.
But I know the difference between right and wrong.
I used to be a very angry person. Now I am just disappointed with the way of the world.
Doesn't mean I will give up.
Every change starts with you. Kalao ko rasakan there is something wrong, mulakan perubahan, dengan merubah diri.
I cannot dispose of idiots and fuckheads who don't have a self-belief system, or wallow in hypocrisy and lies for their own personal benefit - but I can better myself each time.
Success is the best revenge - always.
Let God Almighty judge those who mean harm to me. God the ever merciful is able to forgive.
I'm not God. I'm only human. I can't. I won't. Even if one day I do, I will never forget. You can never truly forget those cuts that are the deepest and the biggest betrayals.
But plotting their downfall brings nothing. I realize that.
So this episode perhaps, is the best pembakar semangat I have to move ahead. I now have a better reason to succeed. Not to prove I'm better than some losers out there. That's already given.
Tapi untuk aku memperbaiki diri sendiri demi masa depan aku, semua yang bergantung pada aku - and simply because I believe that God has given me such gifts in my ability to see and hear things in a different way.
Thank you God for this enlightenment you've given me. Amen.
Ini kali terakhir aku nak tulis pasal sejarah hitam yang sebenarnya siaran ulangan. Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice, shame on me.
The doors to certain people in my life are closed shut, tapi pintu hati aku masih terbuka pada those who don't mess me, my life, or my family up.
And I wil keep it that way and let go of this episode. No time to waste. Pointless to argue against people who have yet to see the error of their ways. One day they will know the impact of what they did - but that's for them to deal with, not me.
Being human, we are always so blinded by temporary joys, we forget to appreciate what we already have.
Like the saying goes. What you want, and what you need - are very different things.
So kawan-kawan, hari ini, I have reborn. I have a new light guiding me.
They say everyday is a new day - today it is more truer for me than ever.
Thank you, thank you and thank you to everyone out there for your love. Let's bring the balloons out and get the music pumping cause the party is beginning!
I have rediscovered what it means to be alive. I don't need to live a lie or push away the world. I just need to be thankful for everything around me.
Blog entries back to normal after this (motif ramai sorak bosan ngan melodrama minggu ini gituh?)
Until then, here's my song of strength. If any of you went through what I went through, and are looking for strength, listen to this song and go Obama and say - yes, we can! Matilah! Love you folks. Be posting very soon.
Aku beberapa hari ni da semakin sembuh. Tapi doakan sangat Tuhan tunjuk apa silap aku sangat sampai aku rasa diperbodohkan.
Tanpa disangka... Tuhan nak tunjuk. Orang yang sepatutnya rapat, kita amik berat - rupanya bangsa penipu, dan tak kenang budi. Marahla camna dia pon aku cakap camni, it's a fact.
Macam-macam jadi sampai bukti kukuh depan mata aku.
Kalao nak sangat main ngan kawan aku sendiri, dan sanggup lak orang tu - silakan.
Tapi kepercayaan hilang terus.
Selama ni aku tak salahkan sesiapa kecuali diri sendiri. Rupanya orang tu sendiri selama ni letak beban kat pala aku, cam aku sorang salah gila babiks nak menyundal ngan 'kawan' aku sendiri. Kawan aku ke?
Entahlah. Kalao da stok binatang nak sangat, sanggup menyelinap masuk rumah orang tengah malam nak wat benda tu, tanpa hormat semua kengkawan yang terlibat - lantak la. It just shows what kind of upbringing you have.
Enough said.
Takpe. Hati aku tenang.
Dalam keinginan nak marah - aku bersabar. Aku pasrah, redha.,.. aku terima saja.
Benda da nak jadi. Siapa aku nak menghalang takdir kan.
But all I wanted was respect, and honesty.
And if you fucked behind my back pon - at least say sorry for hurting me. Both of you.
Ni ngan tak bersalah, menuduh macam-macam kat aku. Like it's my fault. Aku terima la. Aku pun da dibodohkan sebab ikhlas ngan orang, seolah aku ni bodoh sebab tak harapkan sesuatu dari ko.
My life isn't over. Thank God for showing me the truth in such a strange way.
I have moved on. No anger. I have my closure.
Forgiveness?
Siapa aku nak maafkan korang atas apa korang wat. Lagikpon korang rasa korang tak wat pe pon yang salah. Kan?
You know that saying about every action etc... well... the wheels have been set in motion.
I leave a higher power to do what's right.
Kesimpulannya. Aku dimarah, dibodohkan - rupanya penipu nak cover line sebab nak menyundal ngan orang yang aku sangkakan kawan aku - yang sendiri tak reti hormat. Aku nampak bukti - tu pun slagi berdiam tanak cakap, tanak ngaku. Bukti ada ngan aku. Yes I have the proof. I will do nothing with it but remind me like your messages that I kept the first time you did this to me sebelom ko jugak yang merayu nak kawan balik. I am at peace. Good luck and have a good life. Aku cuma doakan kalao ada salah aku, Tuhan tunjukkan supaya I can get better. But kalao ada yang wat salah ngan aku, aku doakan Tuhan berikan petunjuk pada mereka gak la...
With all my personal drama I didn't say anything about our 18 Malaysians in detention by Israeli forces, of which 12 were from the attacked Turkish ship Mavi Marmara and the remaining six were from the second ship, which was towed to Halifah Port.
We're all seriously concerned - but seriously irritated by people trying to justify that they're doing something by spamming via Blackberry, Twitter and Facebook about it. Seriously people - do something productive.
Still - my... our prayers all go out to our Malaysians, be safe and come home - the whole country is praying for your return.
Here in my home. Our home.
Praying for you guys to return.
PS - Kak Min. Miss you so much times like this where I need someone to cry to. Love you - God bless.
The Istana Negara, a symbol of our country's monarchy - will now cost double the RM400 million estimated.
If that's not enough... an extremely smart person suggested we needed to move our iconic Parliament - to Putrajaya. At the cost of RM800 million.
The Istana Negara, a symbol of our country's monarchy - will now cost double the RM400 million estimated.
If that's not enough... an extremely smart person suggested we needed to move our iconic Parliament - to Putrajaya. At the cost of RM800 million.
